Yesterday was a tumultous day since 2 yrs back. Tears flowed, words exchanged, hidden emotions displayed. But at the end of the day, what did we get from all these? A step back into the past, which will thereafter be the future.
Sending my heartfelt appreciation for all of you out there who really cared (regardless in whichever manner). I am very grateful to the fact that this time round, it's not me against the rest of you. I know supporting my decision would be abit too harsh for you guys as frens... but by accepting it, is more than enough for me to pull this through.
No worries about me dearies ( I know you guys are not exactly worried)... I wll get through this, I am still the super Leo. I will bear that in mind. Acting without putting it through the brain is not the usual way I do things, but I guess, this time round, the heart wins.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
More than just that...
I have unwittingly dragged myself back into the mess I tried so hard to get out of.
A soft spot was all I was calling it ... all these while.. But I guess... once again, the heart feels differently from the thinking brain. I have never been at a loss for any kinda situations in my life... No one.. no matter how strong the character is, no matter how overbearing, I could handle, situations were always under control. These were harsh situations and characters we are talking about here. But this time, I am trapped. For the second time.
No character, situations are ambiguous, and yet, I am trapped. Not the usual thinking self, just letting my heart lead, step by step, usually into the wall. But for him, even the wall becomes soft. Harsh reality gets thrown underneath the carpet. And, he did not do a single thing to cushion all these. It just all happens because it's him.
Rational me becomes dreamer me. Living on bread me, starts living and breathing with the heart once again.
Wake up. He is not the one. Reality will hit me in the face once I step too deep once again. Hope that by saying that to myself and everyone out there... Sooner or later, I will wake up.
A soft spot was all I was calling it ... all these while.. But I guess... once again, the heart feels differently from the thinking brain. I have never been at a loss for any kinda situations in my life... No one.. no matter how strong the character is, no matter how overbearing, I could handle, situations were always under control. These were harsh situations and characters we are talking about here. But this time, I am trapped. For the second time.
No character, situations are ambiguous, and yet, I am trapped. Not the usual thinking self, just letting my heart lead, step by step, usually into the wall. But for him, even the wall becomes soft. Harsh reality gets thrown underneath the carpet. And, he did not do a single thing to cushion all these. It just all happens because it's him.
Rational me becomes dreamer me. Living on bread me, starts living and breathing with the heart once again.
Wake up. He is not the one. Reality will hit me in the face once I step too deep once again. Hope that by saying that to myself and everyone out there... Sooner or later, I will wake up.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
You can do it my man! Go Show Go!
Can't sleep.. Can't do anything...watching a programme that I used to love...He has a new album ...doing his album publicity ...Still as cute and gorgeous looking ...pretty face ..e hairstyle and color is supposed to bring out his boyish features ..and it does well ...BUT..........he is imitating Rain !!!!!!!! Clothes, hair color, dance moves ...they are all screaming Rain !!!
Ok ....Second chance already given e last time round ...one more ...in 30 secs u will be performing your song ...
Okays.. No improvement in voice..but..you are still forgiven my dear... For those blessed good looks... Who can stay angry for long....... Welcome to e club of schizophrenia........
Ok ....Second chance already given e last time round ...one more ...in 30 secs u will be performing your song ...
Okays.. No improvement in voice..but..you are still forgiven my dear... For those blessed good looks... Who can stay angry for long....... Welcome to e club of schizophrenia........
Monday, November 20, 2006
Smart teethies
Waiting..
Didn't imagine i will be in this state.. Think i forgotten wat pain is. All e while from confirming e appointment of e surgery till now.. I din feel like it was gonna hurt. Oh.. Doc's calling me in.. Doomsday awaits.. Later guys..
Okay.. I am out. It was a drilling experience..literally!!! I took out two of my teeth.. Upper and lower. Lower is e major one which required cutting, drilling, stitching and wat have you. Took 30 mins for e bloody (again literal) tooth to come out. Upper took a grand total of 3 mins.
Wens just had her's taken out. She had 4 to 5 jabs of anaesthetic.. Sharin had about there too. But.......... I had only two! Towards e end of e surgery.. I could feel e pain already.. Slightly.. And my doc said.. "hmm .. Her numbness wear off very fast hor..." All right then.... Point taken. All I could hear and feel under the comfort of my mask was the drilling and hitting of metal against teeth. Doc said "Don't worry girl.. you will feel slight vibrations.. " Vibrations? hahahha .. so funny.... I wanted to burst out laughing cos I started imagining that there were little elves in my mouth (like in the toothpaste ads), instead of cleansing, they were either trying to build a house in my mouth, or tear down one.
But all in all it's fine. Considering tat e full effect of e jabs had flowed out of my bloodstream.. E pain is not excruciating. In fact.. pain is not really e word.. It's discomfort.. Oh no.. I better not speak too early... Just in case mr P decides to teach me a lesson for being "key key "...
Didn't imagine i will be in this state.. Think i forgotten wat pain is. All e while from confirming e appointment of e surgery till now.. I din feel like it was gonna hurt. Oh.. Doc's calling me in.. Doomsday awaits.. Later guys..
Okay.. I am out. It was a drilling experience..literally!!! I took out two of my teeth.. Upper and lower. Lower is e major one which required cutting, drilling, stitching and wat have you. Took 30 mins for e bloody (again literal) tooth to come out. Upper took a grand total of 3 mins.
Wens just had her's taken out. She had 4 to 5 jabs of anaesthetic.. Sharin had about there too. But.......... I had only two! Towards e end of e surgery.. I could feel e pain already.. Slightly.. And my doc said.. "hmm .. Her numbness wear off very fast hor..." All right then.... Point taken. All I could hear and feel under the comfort of my mask was the drilling and hitting of metal against teeth. Doc said "Don't worry girl.. you will feel slight vibrations.. " Vibrations? hahahha .. so funny.... I wanted to burst out laughing cos I started imagining that there were little elves in my mouth (like in the toothpaste ads), instead of cleansing, they were either trying to build a house in my mouth, or tear down one.
But all in all it's fine. Considering tat e full effect of e jabs had flowed out of my bloodstream.. E pain is not excruciating. In fact.. pain is not really e word.. It's discomfort.. Oh no.. I better not speak too early... Just in case mr P decides to teach me a lesson for being "key key "...
Back out of Back up
It was non obligatory non commital. No harm. We had no reporting line. Now tat i know the end of the line exist.. I will stop. It's not worth it.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Exhilaration, Relaxation
Ok.. maybe the title is abit misleading.. but really didn't know how to place it.
After Timbre, heavily under the impression that Kat n Vic are still at dream bar.. I found my way there. To find out that they just left for Butter Factory about 10 mins ago! Those beepy girls didn't even attempt to inform me. But then again, if they are already intoxicated... there is not much more than this I would expect.
So anyway... I drank abit before I left Timbre, thus, I was in a more relaxed mood than usual.. alcohol makes me lose my normal inhibitions mah... hehe ... Layeng knew immediately that I drank.. cos more high than usual.. realised that .. maybe I should start drinking bits.. instead of not at all.. to get the high.. well.. this is on the condition that I do my prayers that there will be no roadblocks... forever.......... hahaha ..
hmm.. then we learnt a new game from xinlei apparently... quite spastic but fun.. hehehe .. then dream bar was closing.. so off we went to Actors.. Saw this not bad lookin man.. who looks like a better version of "our man" (to JR)... better body lah... taller.. but April jie thinks he no cute.. but after awhile he went off I think.. Din see him when we left.. I din even notice cos we had so much fun playing with the tambourines and what have you!!!! So SO fun!!!! ahhahahahha ...
Then after a very long deliberation... our self-conscious Jae decided to sing with the live band... with MJ... so off they went.. hahha .. Below are the photos of them.. Hopefully... e next time round.. we can hear more of them. Oh.. MJ did an english song. hahaha.. ALONE. So work hard at it guys!! MJ has to be less intoxicated.. and Jae has to get rid of the stage scare... ok.. the fotos now..
After Timbre, heavily under the impression that Kat n Vic are still at dream bar.. I found my way there. To find out that they just left for Butter Factory about 10 mins ago! Those beepy girls didn't even attempt to inform me. But then again, if they are already intoxicated... there is not much more than this I would expect.
So anyway... I drank abit before I left Timbre, thus, I was in a more relaxed mood than usual.. alcohol makes me lose my normal inhibitions mah... hehe ... Layeng knew immediately that I drank.. cos more high than usual.. realised that .. maybe I should start drinking bits.. instead of not at all.. to get the high.. well.. this is on the condition that I do my prayers that there will be no roadblocks... forever.......... hahaha ..
hmm.. then we learnt a new game from xinlei apparently... quite spastic but fun.. hehehe .. then dream bar was closing.. so off we went to Actors.. Saw this not bad lookin man.. who looks like a better version of "our man" (to JR)... better body lah... taller.. but April jie thinks he no cute.. but after awhile he went off I think.. Din see him when we left.. I din even notice cos we had so much fun playing with the tambourines and what have you!!!! So SO fun!!!! ahhahahahha ...
Then after a very long deliberation... our self-conscious Jae decided to sing with the live band... with MJ... so off they went.. hahha .. Below are the photos of them.. Hopefully... e next time round.. we can hear more of them. Oh.. MJ did an english song. hahaha.. ALONE. So work hard at it guys!! MJ has to be less intoxicated.. and Jae has to get rid of the stage scare... ok.. the fotos now..
Happy 26 Fatboy..!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUN!!!!!!!!!!!
yes yes.. finally we are at the end of the yr again ... So used to zee fatboy having his bdae when everyone else is mugging.. well.. now the gang is almost there. not mugging.. other than dc and chunks.... but good enuff.. So this yr.. it was done at Timbre. And DC lied!!! Told me Timbre can smoke. but cannot lor! I mean not like really cannot.. but there is a designated smoking area.. and since bulk of them don't do the puffing.. I had to move my ass to elsewhere to inject my nicotine. But it was nice! I meant Timbre.. As good as wala .. more spacious... Nooootttt bbaaadddddd...... :)
It was a relaxed night.. everyone downing their booze... oh ya.. vic's all time love was singing... I have to admit.. He definitely did not sound as good when I heard him at wala. So the usual gang was there... and DC called. With love from Perth. We all had our fair share of DC.... haha ..... he must be really bored.. Poor fella.
So yeapz.. this n that.. another one of us has joined the over a quarter of century old group. To all my frenz out there in the same plight... welcome to the world of checking the "Age: 26-29" box.
Fatboi, Violet, Raj n Keith.. FatB with his hall buddies..
FatB with Anna, the lady of his life...
It's us... the usual peeps.. I don't have fotos of everyone there.. but I m trying to post as many as possible.. hehe ..
New Face!! Belinda.. on the right..
WH's crazy antics... And guess who Toon is on the phone with? Yeapz.. it's Auzzie boy......
And of cos, we couldn't leave Auzzie DC boy outta this... so SC's idea came along.. we did our best DC, to get you involved in the party..... here is the evidence of our attempt.
yes yes.. finally we are at the end of the yr again ... So used to zee fatboy having his bdae when everyone else is mugging.. well.. now the gang is almost there. not mugging.. other than dc and chunks.... but good enuff.. So this yr.. it was done at Timbre. And DC lied!!! Told me Timbre can smoke. but cannot lor! I mean not like really cannot.. but there is a designated smoking area.. and since bulk of them don't do the puffing.. I had to move my ass to elsewhere to inject my nicotine. But it was nice! I meant Timbre.. As good as wala .. more spacious... Nooootttt bbaaadddddd...... :)
It was a relaxed night.. everyone downing their booze... oh ya.. vic's all time love was singing... I have to admit.. He definitely did not sound as good when I heard him at wala. So the usual gang was there... and DC called. With love from Perth. We all had our fair share of DC.... haha ..... he must be really bored.. Poor fella.
So yeapz.. this n that.. another one of us has joined the over a quarter of century old group. To all my frenz out there in the same plight... welcome to the world of checking the "Age: 26-29" box.
Fatboi, Violet, Raj n Keith.. FatB with his hall buddies..
FatB with Anna, the lady of his life...
It's us... the usual peeps.. I don't have fotos of everyone there.. but I m trying to post as many as possible.. hehe ..
New Face!! Belinda.. on the right..
WH's crazy antics... And guess who Toon is on the phone with? Yeapz.. it's Auzzie boy......
And of cos, we couldn't leave Auzzie DC boy outta this... so SC's idea came along.. we did our best DC, to get you involved in the party..... here is the evidence of our attempt.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Regained power
Never knew that driving played such an important role in my mundane life.
Working in the business district does not give me the freedom to drive to and fro work. That did not pose as a problem. I thought. So on I went, to commute like the rest of the world.. trains, buses, cabs.. Interaction with other living beings who are complete strangers seemed like an experience which is badly missed. No complaints.
Found a way to drive to work, without the financial burden it supposedly incurred. I thought, oh well, nothing much would have changed I suppose. But once again, I proved myself wrong. Slowly, I begin to realise the sense of power, independence and authority that comes along with driving, and how much I needed and missed it. No need to rely on anything or anyone else.
Admittedly, I was very comfortable with being "chauffeured" around. Stepping into the passenger's seat instead of the driver's.. seems like a dream.... But I guess.... since dreams don't last that long.... I am back.. in the driver's seat... doing my own steering of direction.. on the road... and in my life.
Working in the business district does not give me the freedom to drive to and fro work. That did not pose as a problem. I thought. So on I went, to commute like the rest of the world.. trains, buses, cabs.. Interaction with other living beings who are complete strangers seemed like an experience which is badly missed. No complaints.
Found a way to drive to work, without the financial burden it supposedly incurred. I thought, oh well, nothing much would have changed I suppose. But once again, I proved myself wrong. Slowly, I begin to realise the sense of power, independence and authority that comes along with driving, and how much I needed and missed it. No need to rely on anything or anyone else.
Admittedly, I was very comfortable with being "chauffeured" around. Stepping into the passenger's seat instead of the driver's.. seems like a dream.... But I guess.... since dreams don't last that long.... I am back.. in the driver's seat... doing my own steering of direction.. on the road... and in my life.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Moment
I am a very weird and warped person. I think.
I don't like to hang around strangers.
I don't like to listen to too much blabbering with no meaning in them.
I don't like to sit in conversations where the whole point of spouting words out of the mouth is to fill up the egos.
I don't like to listen to advice as the same thoughts ran through my head 3 rounds before you even advise.
I don't like to be controlled, unless you are a certain someone.
I don't like to lead and give instructions yet sometimes, it's necessary.
I don't like others to like me for my looks, yet I only like others by how they look.
I don't like to party at clubs.
I don't like to down booze.
I don't like pple to like me.
I don't like lots of pple, but there is zero hatred in me.
I don't like to like, cos I like to love.
See what I mean... I am a very weird and warped person. I am sure.
DC...May All Our Wishes FLY With You.........
BYE BYE DECAI!!!!!! Off he went.. to auz.. for the next 9-10 months.. cadet pilot training... do well.. without a doubt you will... :)
So to send him off with a weird gathering.. weird cos.. it was sunday.. and at 11am... i mean seriously .. do we all wake up that early? Me for one.. NO. hahah.. but cos it was a special event, I woke up. We went ahead to Furama for dim sum... good meal with lotsa laughter as usual... conversations were thrown across the table... requiring a high level of intelligence for anyone outside the table to understand. Quoting chunks. hahahhah
On a serious note, we are really proud of DC.. like we have always been... he has been topping classes in his training courses and bla bla bla... so work hard.. and we will work hard here to TRY to fly over to pay you a visit.... heh.. :P
There goes my dinner-mate, and WH's wifey...............
A few pics here... for everyone.. and for DC too.. cos we all refuse to send fotos to him!! hahahhaha ... bleah :p
okays... after 15 mins.. the pics can't be uploaded!!! $%%$#$&%^$^#^%#% @
hey hey .. it's up!!!!!!
Ok... the guys said.. " hurry .. take a photo of us pretending to gossip.. !!" Now.. tell me why we are frens.. really...
Zee guys with their "blue steel" stunt..
The gals this time round.. wat are we doing????
Now.. as always.. the group photo.. isn't it apparent that everyone's in their own little dream world?
So to send him off with a weird gathering.. weird cos.. it was sunday.. and at 11am... i mean seriously .. do we all wake up that early? Me for one.. NO. hahah.. but cos it was a special event, I woke up. We went ahead to Furama for dim sum... good meal with lotsa laughter as usual... conversations were thrown across the table... requiring a high level of intelligence for anyone outside the table to understand. Quoting chunks. hahahhah
On a serious note, we are really proud of DC.. like we have always been... he has been topping classes in his training courses and bla bla bla... so work hard.. and we will work hard here to TRY to fly over to pay you a visit.... heh.. :P
There goes my dinner-mate, and WH's wifey...............
A few pics here... for everyone.. and for DC too.. cos we all refuse to send fotos to him!! hahahhaha ... bleah :p
okays... after 15 mins.. the pics can't be uploaded!!! $%%$#$&%^$^#^%#% @
hey hey .. it's up!!!!!!
Ok... the guys said.. " hurry .. take a photo of us pretending to gossip.. !!" Now.. tell me why we are frens.. really...
Zee guys with their "blue steel" stunt..
The gals this time round.. wat are we doing????
Now.. as always.. the group photo.. isn't it apparent that everyone's in their own little dream world?
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Chapter 1462 of my life
I haven been really busy at work... until today that is .. had a really long break over the PH weekend... took leave, mc and all... figured in my mind that this would at least allow myself some space to breathe mentally and physically. But NO, as usual.. the mind didn't figure too well.
Today's the first day I am at home before 12MN... for the past 2 weeks or so I think... it's such a weird feeling.. and best part is... empress dowager is having her own fun somewhere else. So once again, an empty house, er well.. there are my grandparents and my doggie.. but no one I can really talk to. Thank god my bro came home early today... at least there is some life sense ard me...
oh... i finished watching "Goong" or "Princess Hours".... it's amazing... not just the show is amazing.. cos I am a huge sucker for imperial palace shows.. regardless of country.. anyways.. this show has brought me out of the trap I was caught in. IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO REALITY. I guess it sounds very weird.. dramas usually bring dreams into the harsh reality, but for my case, evidently it was the opposite. On top of that, it brought a smile to my face. (beat that!)
Through the show I kinda remembered that there is no reason for me to be vexed over feelings that aren't that strong to begin with. Just cos I am bored? Lonely? or Wat? There is no need to bring myself to accept what is not fully satisfactory. Ok.. let's not talk about being 100% ideal... but knowingly lacking in some areas, of cos excelling in others.. "If the jigsaw piece doesn't fit, what for cut the edges to force it in? Unless you are able to smoothen the edges that no damage is done, don't do it."
I really kinda miss HIS company.... not HIM per say... but I guess fate has brought such an experience.... innocent yet thrilling.. I should be glad. Just let it be.. maybe fate has other plans for us in the future.....
Lastly, presenting some pics from "Goong".... super luv the Prince when he smiles.... rare sight in the show....
Yeah.... the smiling prince...
The cute, blatant, yet true to her own feelings Crown Princess.... Pi-Geum MaMa
The teddies who are such show stealers... I gotta say... the producers of the show earned huge points with the teddy bear concept... watch the show if you guyz dun get it.. :P
Last but not least, one of the sweet moments in the show.... "The star takes 2500 years to make a round to come back to the same place. 2500 years later, I will still wish to be able to know you................ "
Today's the first day I am at home before 12MN... for the past 2 weeks or so I think... it's such a weird feeling.. and best part is... empress dowager is having her own fun somewhere else. So once again, an empty house, er well.. there are my grandparents and my doggie.. but no one I can really talk to. Thank god my bro came home early today... at least there is some life sense ard me...
oh... i finished watching "Goong" or "Princess Hours".... it's amazing... not just the show is amazing.. cos I am a huge sucker for imperial palace shows.. regardless of country.. anyways.. this show has brought me out of the trap I was caught in. IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO REALITY. I guess it sounds very weird.. dramas usually bring dreams into the harsh reality, but for my case, evidently it was the opposite. On top of that, it brought a smile to my face. (beat that!)
Through the show I kinda remembered that there is no reason for me to be vexed over feelings that aren't that strong to begin with. Just cos I am bored? Lonely? or Wat? There is no need to bring myself to accept what is not fully satisfactory. Ok.. let's not talk about being 100% ideal... but knowingly lacking in some areas, of cos excelling in others.. "If the jigsaw piece doesn't fit, what for cut the edges to force it in? Unless you are able to smoothen the edges that no damage is done, don't do it."
I really kinda miss HIS company.... not HIM per say... but I guess fate has brought such an experience.... innocent yet thrilling.. I should be glad. Just let it be.. maybe fate has other plans for us in the future.....
Lastly, presenting some pics from "Goong".... super luv the Prince when he smiles.... rare sight in the show....
Yeah.... the smiling prince...
The cute, blatant, yet true to her own feelings Crown Princess.... Pi-Geum MaMa
The teddies who are such show stealers... I gotta say... the producers of the show earned huge points with the teddy bear concept... watch the show if you guyz dun get it.. :P
Last but not least, one of the sweet moments in the show.... "The star takes 2500 years to make a round to come back to the same place. 2500 years later, I will still wish to be able to know you................ "
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Mum's own myths...
Something just happened just now .. rather.. my mum has said some stuff to make me look at her in awe once again!! WHAT THE BEEP IS SHE THINKING???!???!!??!!!!!???
Okays.. I am on MC today... so doc says I am down with gastric flu.... and everyone knows that it's contagious.. in a way.....
So mummy came in my room to look for me .. then my doggie sneaked in with her... So I said.. why you bring him in?? I will wanna sleep for the next few hours.. then he will be stuck in my room.. then mummy replied..............
"對hor .... (to Mushroom: Mushroom... quick go out... 不可以留在這裡，不然姐姐會傳染給你。。快點出去！)"
OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!! KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!! My bimbotic mum has once again topped the table for doing the most ridiculous things in the world... By the way.... the top 5 titles all belong to her..................
Okays.. I am on MC today... so doc says I am down with gastric flu.... and everyone knows that it's contagious.. in a way.....
So mummy came in my room to look for me .. then my doggie sneaked in with her... So I said.. why you bring him in?? I will wanna sleep for the next few hours.. then he will be stuck in my room.. then mummy replied..............
"對hor .... (to Mushroom: Mushroom... quick go out... 不可以留在這裡，不然姐姐會傳染給你。。快點出去！)"
OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!! KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!! My bimbotic mum has once again topped the table for doing the most ridiculous things in the world... By the way.... the top 5 titles all belong to her..................
Sunday, October 08, 2006
It's been a while...
Last entry was posted 16th september. Today's date: 8th Oct .... Tat's about 3 weeks right? How come it seems to be like it's been months... maybe it wasn't too good a period of time in between... haha ...
I have been "busy" recently.. with what.. I won't bother to say. Basically I won't be updating you guys on what has been happening in my life for the weeks of MIA... cos... I don't feel like!! I just felt tat I was letting my blogspot down if I don't start penning something in here soon enough. hahah..
I have been skipping work more often ... which is not a good sign.. my boss has already reminded me in a light hearted manner... but it can turn serious any moment. Oh.. this I gotta mention.. I have been going to this pub called "boozy" for the past few saturdays... cos wendy, mj and damon took part in this singing competition held there. Well.. no prizes for guessing... they kinda swept the top spots... but it was fun while it lasted... they had the biggest group of supporters....!! Congrats Guyz!!!!!!
Oh.. something else about work.. I think I have successfully convinced my boss to let me change my job scope.. yay yay... but more politics to manage after this... I AM SURE....
And..... congrats to my buds..... V & K..... I believe both of ya are like in lala land now.......... GOOD. hahahahha .... enjoy.....
It's time I met up with the guys too..... was supposed to meet them for a horror movie session... but I didn't manage to make it.. sorry peeps... I know DC is leaving soon.. I will meet you guys soon soon soon!!! And I thot we going to Oz to visit? hahahaha .. Do us proud DC!!
Righty..... there are quite a few fotos for me upload.. but nothing seems too good for anything... I have no idea what kinda captions to tag to those... New digi... New PDA phone.. but none of these can make me feel thrilled for more than 3 days. Good grief.
Anyway... hope I grasp what the beep I have been doing nowadays... I think the 2 full days of sleeping in has gotten to me in more ways than one..... catch you guys soon!!
I have been "busy" recently.. with what.. I won't bother to say. Basically I won't be updating you guys on what has been happening in my life for the weeks of MIA... cos... I don't feel like!! I just felt tat I was letting my blogspot down if I don't start penning something in here soon enough. hahah..
I have been skipping work more often ... which is not a good sign.. my boss has already reminded me in a light hearted manner... but it can turn serious any moment. Oh.. this I gotta mention.. I have been going to this pub called "boozy" for the past few saturdays... cos wendy, mj and damon took part in this singing competition held there. Well.. no prizes for guessing... they kinda swept the top spots... but it was fun while it lasted... they had the biggest group of supporters....!! Congrats Guyz!!!!!!
Oh.. something else about work.. I think I have successfully convinced my boss to let me change my job scope.. yay yay... but more politics to manage after this... I AM SURE....
And..... congrats to my buds..... V & K..... I believe both of ya are like in lala land now.......... GOOD. hahahahha .... enjoy.....
It's time I met up with the guys too..... was supposed to meet them for a horror movie session... but I didn't manage to make it.. sorry peeps... I know DC is leaving soon.. I will meet you guys soon soon soon!!! And I thot we going to Oz to visit? hahahaha .. Do us proud DC!!
Righty..... there are quite a few fotos for me upload.. but nothing seems too good for anything... I have no idea what kinda captions to tag to those... New digi... New PDA phone.. but none of these can make me feel thrilled for more than 3 days. Good grief.
Anyway... hope I grasp what the beep I have been doing nowadays... I think the 2 full days of sleeping in has gotten to me in more ways than one..... catch you guys soon!!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
A Week Just Flew Past.....
It's been quite some time since I posted any entries.. ok.. It's a week... I have been so occupied with work... and "outings" that I dun have time to sit in front of my lappie to even throw in a random entry...
Met up with the whole gang on thursday... was it ? Ya.. I think it was thursday... Didn't wanna go initially... but told myself I will leave early cos I din drive.. but as usual.. left at 1plus.. oh ya.. mj won the pool competition.. so had a bottle of free vodka.. their fave.. not the vodka part.. the "free" part.. hahahhaha.. and yesterday.. went down to this place at jalan sultan... for this singing competition which mj, damon and wens are participating in. Yesh.. all got into the finals... I think it's the finals lah .. good grief.. I can't seem to be sure of anything.. But anyway.... Congrats guys!!! More free alcohol waiting for snatch-ups!
There are quite a number of things to update you peeps.. but somehow or another.. I m too tired to type it all in with all the details.. hahaha .. oh.. got my increment.. it was rather insignificant.. even my boss mentioned that he knows it is.. but I have 2 more coming up.. one in dec one in feb... dec's should be rank promotion with some extra moolahs.. the feb one is gonna be pretty substantial.. cos tat's when everything is set up.. hopefully all these will happen lah!! hahahahha .
Something weird is happening.. i sleep for a mere 3-4 hours everyday on the weekdays for the past week.. so when sat hits.. I m like.. woo hoo!!! I can sleep till wee hours into the afternoon.. but apparently .. for the second day running.. (today is sunday).. I woke up before noon striked. hmm.. something is happening...... weird......
Met up with the whole gang on thursday... was it ? Ya.. I think it was thursday... Didn't wanna go initially... but told myself I will leave early cos I din drive.. but as usual.. left at 1plus.. oh ya.. mj won the pool competition.. so had a bottle of free vodka.. their fave.. not the vodka part.. the "free" part.. hahahhaha.. and yesterday.. went down to this place at jalan sultan... for this singing competition which mj, damon and wens are participating in. Yesh.. all got into the finals... I think it's the finals lah .. good grief.. I can't seem to be sure of anything.. But anyway.... Congrats guys!!! More free alcohol waiting for snatch-ups!
There are quite a number of things to update you peeps.. but somehow or another.. I m too tired to type it all in with all the details.. hahaha .. oh.. got my increment.. it was rather insignificant.. even my boss mentioned that he knows it is.. but I have 2 more coming up.. one in dec one in feb... dec's should be rank promotion with some extra moolahs.. the feb one is gonna be pretty substantial.. cos tat's when everything is set up.. hopefully all these will happen lah!! hahahahha .
Something weird is happening.. i sleep for a mere 3-4 hours everyday on the weekdays for the past week.. so when sat hits.. I m like.. woo hoo!!! I can sleep till wee hours into the afternoon.. but apparently .. for the second day running.. (today is sunday).. I woke up before noon striked. hmm.. something is happening...... weird......
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Mindless Entertainment
It's a Saturday. To be frank, ever since I stopped my singing class... there is nothing to push me ahead and get on with the day. Since there is no reason for me to wake up and make it in time for class, I have every reason to stick my ass to my bed, my eyes to the tv.
I have been watching tv programmes the whole entire day. And........ I woke up at 10am this morning. No idea why... maybe cos there are too many things in my head.. Can't seem to sleep peacefully. But this mindless way of getting through my saturday has once again creeped into my life. And I welcome it.
I watched every programme that my fingers found it's way to direct the remote to switch. From taiwanese news (basically, it's all about getting Mr Tan to step down, and them doing a quiet protest), MTV concerts, make up and beauty variety shows, reality shows, Irwin's show ( It's an irony, this epi was documenting Irwin putting his dog, Sui Irwin to sleep), dramas of cos.. etc. And without fail... in about half an hour's time.. I will finally get my ass off my bed... and make a trip to complete the full range of tv programmes. Last one left: EPL game on a sat nite.
Try this once in a while if you can... you will be amazed at how therapeutic it can be.......
I have been watching tv programmes the whole entire day. And........ I woke up at 10am this morning. No idea why... maybe cos there are too many things in my head.. Can't seem to sleep peacefully. But this mindless way of getting through my saturday has once again creeped into my life. And I welcome it.
I watched every programme that my fingers found it's way to direct the remote to switch. From taiwanese news (basically, it's all about getting Mr Tan to step down, and them doing a quiet protest), MTV concerts, make up and beauty variety shows, reality shows, Irwin's show ( It's an irony, this epi was documenting Irwin putting his dog, Sui Irwin to sleep), dramas of cos.. etc. And without fail... in about half an hour's time.. I will finally get my ass off my bed... and make a trip to complete the full range of tv programmes. Last one left: EPL game on a sat nite.
Try this once in a while if you can... you will be amazed at how therapeutic it can be.......
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
The building of the 50's
For the whole of this week, I am supposed to make a trip down to our Jurong branch to do some testing. So yesterday, I went with boss. It apparently didn't register in my head when boss kept mentioning that the place is horrid. I thought he was being the usual spoilt brat. But when we arrived, I FULLY UNDERSTOOD. It's really literally a GOD FORSAKEN place.
It's almost amazing that such a building exists in our country. It looks unlived in, dilapidated and I think it's gonna fall apart. Well, testing was real boring. When we went for our drinks and fag.... we were like tourists. Whipped out our phones. and started snapping away ..... Then I saw. Our branch is not the only branch there... there were another 2 banks, and a supermarket there.. I mean who in the world will bank at such a place. But apparently quite alot of customers and the deposit base of the branches there are pretty substantial.
Sigh.. today I went there alone. It was a dreary trip there. But boss had good news for me. He came a couple of hours later, went for his meeting, came out, and picked me up to leave. On the way out, he said he rescued me. Took me awhile.. but i got it. hahaha.. it means I don't have to go back there for the rest of the week! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally... some pics to show u peeps what it was like in timbuktu. Note: I am not being spoilt here mind you. I am just thinking.. upgrade the place! It's unsafe for the banks to be there too... this is practicality.
This is the lift.. blk 66 it says...
And these are the letter boxes... check them out....
Appreciate what we have................
It's almost amazing that such a building exists in our country. It looks unlived in, dilapidated and I think it's gonna fall apart. Well, testing was real boring. When we went for our drinks and fag.... we were like tourists. Whipped out our phones. and started snapping away ..... Then I saw. Our branch is not the only branch there... there were another 2 banks, and a supermarket there.. I mean who in the world will bank at such a place. But apparently quite alot of customers and the deposit base of the branches there are pretty substantial.
Sigh.. today I went there alone. It was a dreary trip there. But boss had good news for me. He came a couple of hours later, went for his meeting, came out, and picked me up to leave. On the way out, he said he rescued me. Took me awhile.. but i got it. hahaha.. it means I don't have to go back there for the rest of the week! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally... some pics to show u peeps what it was like in timbuktu. Note: I am not being spoilt here mind you. I am just thinking.. upgrade the place! It's unsafe for the banks to be there too... this is practicality.
This is the lift.. blk 66 it says...
And these are the letter boxes... check them out....
Appreciate what we have................
bloody bugger..!!
I really hate this bugger!! There is this guy who used to go after me... Once in a while he will call me.. But I really dun like him at all!
Oh .. by the way.. his cousin is Ken Chu... so there was this once.. this guy asked me to attend his birthday function.. I went ok.. if your cousin goes.. then I will go... hahha .. win-win situation... :)
ok... so he called me a couple of days back. Asked me what is the minimum criteria to apply for a credit card. So i told him... then he asked for the required income documents.. n I said.. ya.. all correct. Then he said this.
"OH... COS MY NOTICE OF ASSESSMENT IS 54K.... "
I was like.. wat the fuck!! What has it gotta do with me... Then he carried on to explain now he is travelling around so he needs the card and all .. BLEAH.
Seriously... Alex... even if you earned 100k a yr... I won't even give you a second thought. You have to START growing up!!!!!!
Oh .. by the way.. his cousin is Ken Chu... so there was this once.. this guy asked me to attend his birthday function.. I went ok.. if your cousin goes.. then I will go... hahha .. win-win situation... :)
ok... so he called me a couple of days back. Asked me what is the minimum criteria to apply for a credit card. So i told him... then he asked for the required income documents.. n I said.. ya.. all correct. Then he said this.
"OH... COS MY NOTICE OF ASSESSMENT IS 54K.... "
I was like.. wat the fuck!! What has it gotta do with me... Then he carried on to explain now he is travelling around so he needs the card and all .. BLEAH.
Seriously... Alex... even if you earned 100k a yr... I won't even give you a second thought. You have to START growing up!!!!!!
Saturday, September 02, 2006
$$$$.... Roll it in!!!!
Yippee~~!! Everyone's getting a pay rise... good. Now, it's finally my turn. But how much it's gonna be.. I have no idea. Hopefully.. it will make me at least contained for the next couple of months. Boss mentioned one revision this month... next one in March 07... I know the March adjustment will be pretty substantial.. but tat's quite a long way to go ... But I've got nothing much to crap about... cos I have not even worked in this company for 2 months.. and I am getting a pay rise... so maybe I should really just shut my gap ya....
Had a dream yesterday night .... I really don't know if I should be blogging about this... since Ah Sa mentioned that bosses now love to read their staff's blogs.. just to get to know them better. I am not gonna bitch about my boss.... in fact... its the opposite. Now... here's the story.
So I dreamt. It was about me and my "boyfriend"... who happens to be .............................. you got it. MY BOSS.
SO WEIRD! ok.. it wasn't really weird weird.. I was pretty happy in my dream.. I could even safely admit it was a sweet dream! So Rin asked me.. did I feel weird in my dream that my bf was my boss... cos on normal occasions... when something is so out of this world... even when you are dreaming.. you will still feel that it's appalling and untrue. BUT.... I didn't feel that way. DAMN.
So what is this????? I can't possibly like my boss ............. Ok.. I have to admit.. I appreciate his qualities.... these are the stuff I can't seem to find in anyone around me.. I don't mean you all my frenz.. I mean my "potentials". But tat's about it. It's a scary thought. Trust me. After this dream.. I had alot of trouble facing him at work today. I feel sick. His looks does not fall into the any of the categories of all the "husbands" I am referencing to. Not at all. But why why why!!!!
Right.. so you must be wondering.. BOSS LEH.. old and fulgy....... NO. He is 29..... at the peak of his career only at 29...... earning a hell lot of moolahs.... 3 properties, 4 cars..... born with a platinum spoon in his mouth..... $$$$$$...... and most importantly.... he's got the wit to top it all up. Oh ya.... I am a sucker for guys who can sing.. He can sing. ARGHHHHH.......
Ok lah .. I think this whole thing will phase over before I realise. It's just that bloody dream which got me into all this whirlwind confusion. It's all your fault Jas!! We gossip too much about him.... so much so that when I sleep... I still gotta dream about WORK.. now WORK=BOSS.... DAMN.
Oh... about bosses reading employees' blogs.. I guess I've got no worries for that. He is too swamped with work... to do such boliao things...... PHEW....
Had a dream yesterday night .... I really don't know if I should be blogging about this... since Ah Sa mentioned that bosses now love to read their staff's blogs.. just to get to know them better. I am not gonna bitch about my boss.... in fact... its the opposite. Now... here's the story.
So I dreamt. It was about me and my "boyfriend"... who happens to be .............................. you got it. MY BOSS.
SO WEIRD! ok.. it wasn't really weird weird.. I was pretty happy in my dream.. I could even safely admit it was a sweet dream! So Rin asked me.. did I feel weird in my dream that my bf was my boss... cos on normal occasions... when something is so out of this world... even when you are dreaming.. you will still feel that it's appalling and untrue. BUT.... I didn't feel that way. DAMN.
So what is this????? I can't possibly like my boss ............. Ok.. I have to admit.. I appreciate his qualities.... these are the stuff I can't seem to find in anyone around me.. I don't mean you all my frenz.. I mean my "potentials". But tat's about it. It's a scary thought. Trust me. After this dream.. I had alot of trouble facing him at work today. I feel sick. His looks does not fall into the any of the categories of all the "husbands" I am referencing to. Not at all. But why why why!!!!
Right.. so you must be wondering.. BOSS LEH.. old and fulgy....... NO. He is 29..... at the peak of his career only at 29...... earning a hell lot of moolahs.... 3 properties, 4 cars..... born with a platinum spoon in his mouth..... $$$$$$...... and most importantly.... he's got the wit to top it all up. Oh ya.... I am a sucker for guys who can sing.. He can sing. ARGHHHHH.......
Ok lah .. I think this whole thing will phase over before I realise. It's just that bloody dream which got me into all this whirlwind confusion. It's all your fault Jas!! We gossip too much about him.... so much so that when I sleep... I still gotta dream about WORK.. now WORK=BOSS.... DAMN.
Oh... about bosses reading employees' blogs.. I guess I've got no worries for that. He is too swamped with work... to do such boliao things...... PHEW....
Thursday, August 31, 2006
AMAZING TALES...
My current place of work is well.. the heart of our city... SHENTON WAY. YUCKS.
It is one of the most dreaded place for me on this earth. Lunch time is a horror. Have you heard of the "tissue gang"? Gosh ... I feel sick. A pack of half used tissue... and they wanna ban access to the rest of the world for those seats. You must really check out those looks when you "attempt" to figure out whether those seats are taken. If they see you hovering around their seats... they will show you.. in a manner no less than blatant ... that those seats are "chopped". Kill me.
Now, that's number one. Next in line... I only experienced this incredulous imagination turned reality this time round when I went back. TAKING THE MORNING TRAIN.
I used to take the bus... that was when I could still manage to wake up earlier... so never had this problem. Now.. I take the train . These peepz are amazing... everything that happens on tv on train rides.. happens to me every morning!! becos of my high heels... and my aging body.. I can't seem to balance very well.. but there are no available poles ard for me to grab hold to. Either they are too far away .. or even if they are right next to me.. there is a decoration hanging right next to it : THE POLE HOGGER.
Then... pples' faces are in my face... my hair is in theirs... their bags are nudging my back... all sorts of funny weirdo stuff just happens. It's a challenge getting to work taking the train... without me frowning.. really .. Oh and today.. I was late.. so I had to get on the most exciting timing of trains: 830am to 9am. PEAK. I waited for 3 trains before I managed to get on one. But that was no issue. HOW I got on the train was. I didn't move much.. I was practically shoved by the moving masses ard me.. carrying me with them onto the train. POOF.. and there I was... packed like sardines... Didn't have to balance.. as it was impossible to fall. NO ONE COULD POSSIBLY ATTEMPT SUCH AN AMAZING FEAT OF FALLING WHEN WE ARE ALL SO WELL CUSHIONED LEFT RIGHT FRONT AND BACK.
No matter how tired I am when I first boarded the train... by the time I leave the trains and reach the real world... I am wide awake. The amazing tales of "train-ing" triggers off excitement, challenge, thrills in my desolate mornings..........
PS: yes I may be spoilt.... but it's a revelation to me.. I am still savouring it ....... until my marginal utility reaches the decreasing point of the curve... or rather.. my patience................
It is one of the most dreaded place for me on this earth. Lunch time is a horror. Have you heard of the "tissue gang"? Gosh ... I feel sick. A pack of half used tissue... and they wanna ban access to the rest of the world for those seats. You must really check out those looks when you "attempt" to figure out whether those seats are taken. If they see you hovering around their seats... they will show you.. in a manner no less than blatant ... that those seats are "chopped". Kill me.
Now, that's number one. Next in line... I only experienced this incredulous imagination turned reality this time round when I went back. TAKING THE MORNING TRAIN.
I used to take the bus... that was when I could still manage to wake up earlier... so never had this problem. Now.. I take the train . These peepz are amazing... everything that happens on tv on train rides.. happens to me every morning!! becos of my high heels... and my aging body.. I can't seem to balance very well.. but there are no available poles ard for me to grab hold to. Either they are too far away .. or even if they are right next to me.. there is a decoration hanging right next to it : THE POLE HOGGER.
Then... pples' faces are in my face... my hair is in theirs... their bags are nudging my back... all sorts of funny weirdo stuff just happens. It's a challenge getting to work taking the train... without me frowning.. really .. Oh and today.. I was late.. so I had to get on the most exciting timing of trains: 830am to 9am. PEAK. I waited for 3 trains before I managed to get on one. But that was no issue. HOW I got on the train was. I didn't move much.. I was practically shoved by the moving masses ard me.. carrying me with them onto the train. POOF.. and there I was... packed like sardines... Didn't have to balance.. as it was impossible to fall. NO ONE COULD POSSIBLY ATTEMPT SUCH AN AMAZING FEAT OF FALLING WHEN WE ARE ALL SO WELL CUSHIONED LEFT RIGHT FRONT AND BACK.
No matter how tired I am when I first boarded the train... by the time I leave the trains and reach the real world... I am wide awake. The amazing tales of "train-ing" triggers off excitement, challenge, thrills in my desolate mornings..........
PS: yes I may be spoilt.... but it's a revelation to me.. I am still savouring it ....... until my marginal utility reaches the decreasing point of the curve... or rather.. my patience................
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
ONE
Recently I have been thinking of other peoples' lives. Ever since that day when Gracie and I had a conversation about doing charity, my mind keeps wandering back to it.
I thought about it and came to this conclusion: My life is so short. I am already a quarter of a century old. It's time I give back what I have taken from this Earth.
When I save enough to leave some moolahs with mummy, and to settle everyone, I will drop everything here, and go to one of the third world countries to do some giving and sharing. FOR A YEAR. At the apt moment, I came across this banner at chunk's blog for www.one.org. So there you have it... the calling...
Told Rin about it today.... so she asked why not start doing charity here? Good question. But my reply to that was, no matter how "poverty stricken" some of my fellow citizens may be... they most probably still have a roof above their heads. Pardon me for my blunt remark, but I would still have to contest for it as this is the truth. We are talking about food being a problem, malnutrition is so common that they might not even know its a sickness.
I am suddenly reminded of speaking to some peeps ard me... my frens basically... the conversations we had sometimes makes me feel like "What is wrong with you!!" But I can't really blame them too much. Being pampered is not fault of theirs. I have to admit that I am pampered in certain ways too. However, weirdly enough.. I never had problems with environments which are not up to our hygiene standards.
All that aside, maybe doing this will give me the sense of enrichment in life lessons which I have never really been taught for the past two tens of years. If you guys are interested, do make a visit to www.one.org. There are other organisations other than ONE. Just click on the banner at my blog's sidebar.. it will get you there instantly. Cheerios!!
I thought about it and came to this conclusion: My life is so short. I am already a quarter of a century old. It's time I give back what I have taken from this Earth.
When I save enough to leave some moolahs with mummy, and to settle everyone, I will drop everything here, and go to one of the third world countries to do some giving and sharing. FOR A YEAR. At the apt moment, I came across this banner at chunk's blog for www.one.org. So there you have it... the calling...
Told Rin about it today.... so she asked why not start doing charity here? Good question. But my reply to that was, no matter how "poverty stricken" some of my fellow citizens may be... they most probably still have a roof above their heads. Pardon me for my blunt remark, but I would still have to contest for it as this is the truth. We are talking about food being a problem, malnutrition is so common that they might not even know its a sickness.
I am suddenly reminded of speaking to some peeps ard me... my frens basically... the conversations we had sometimes makes me feel like "What is wrong with you!!" But I can't really blame them too much. Being pampered is not fault of theirs. I have to admit that I am pampered in certain ways too. However, weirdly enough.. I never had problems with environments which are not up to our hygiene standards.
All that aside, maybe doing this will give me the sense of enrichment in life lessons which I have never really been taught for the past two tens of years. If you guys are interested, do make a visit to www.one.org. There are other organisations other than ONE. Just click on the banner at my blog's sidebar.. it will get you there instantly. Cheerios!!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Full House
"FULL HOUSE"
I have watched this show.. I think probably about 5 times.. but without fail.. every single time.. it tickles me like no other dramas can. It is my one and only FAVE drama of ALL TIMES.
What sparked this off once again.. is cos April dear was doing her round of "Full Housing" yesterday nite at Wen's place. I was supposed to be having a hand in my mahjong game... but seems like my eyes were more fixated on the screen.. Instead of the usual "pongs" and what have you... tunes from the show were streaming outta my mouth... it was such a joyous thing to be doing.. hahahaha.. but sorry ah .. to the other 2 peeps who had to endure the girls' sideline commentaries on the show..
To me, "Full House" has been able to capture my attention for the full episodes of its run. Its fast, and really funny. Even though I know exactly what's coming up.. but I still find myself laughing at it. This is so weird.. ahahaha .. Of cos, it has the usual ingredients of a sweet drama, and Rain and Song Hye Gyo being the leads are like the most beautiful thing. They are real compatible. See! Even me, who is an ardent fan of Rain has to admit this.
To those of you out there who think korean dramas as draggy teary prolonged episodes of torture, CATCH THIS. You won't regret this. Hmm.. but just catch this then.. the rest.. er.. well.. most of them still belong to the former category.
Now, presenting one of the sweetest scenes taken from the show, shot in Phuket, enjoy.....
I have watched this show.. I think probably about 5 times.. but without fail.. every single time.. it tickles me like no other dramas can. It is my one and only FAVE drama of ALL TIMES.
What sparked this off once again.. is cos April dear was doing her round of "Full Housing" yesterday nite at Wen's place. I was supposed to be having a hand in my mahjong game... but seems like my eyes were more fixated on the screen.. Instead of the usual "pongs" and what have you... tunes from the show were streaming outta my mouth... it was such a joyous thing to be doing.. hahahaha.. but sorry ah .. to the other 2 peeps who had to endure the girls' sideline commentaries on the show..
To me, "Full House" has been able to capture my attention for the full episodes of its run. Its fast, and really funny. Even though I know exactly what's coming up.. but I still find myself laughing at it. This is so weird.. ahahaha .. Of cos, it has the usual ingredients of a sweet drama, and Rain and Song Hye Gyo being the leads are like the most beautiful thing. They are real compatible. See! Even me, who is an ardent fan of Rain has to admit this.
To those of you out there who think korean dramas as draggy teary prolonged episodes of torture, CATCH THIS. You won't regret this. Hmm.. but just catch this then.. the rest.. er.. well.. most of them still belong to the former category.
Now, presenting one of the sweetest scenes taken from the show, shot in Phuket, enjoy.....
Friday, August 25, 2006
In a state of Nothingness
Life is often as unpredictable as it can get. Maybe it's not life.. but more of a person's emotional state from time to time.
My life hasn't changed much from the start of the week till now. But I guess due to some physical changes, maybe hormonal more like it .. my state of mind changes. It's abit gloomy these couple of days. Even the most positive ideas racing in my head has no light at the end of the tunnel now.
It's like a line graph. Everything was shooting up, life, work, moods etc. Then out of a sudden, the graph changes route to being horizontal. It's stagnant. Everything that looked good seems to diminish into nothingness at this point in time.
What I am gonna say next might offend lotsa pple. But its ok lah .. I do that all the time.
Basically.. I am a very selfish person at the wrong moments. My brain entertains the epitome of selfishness when I am in such moods. These notions usually doesn't last more than 2 days.. but the fact that their presence were felt makes me feel appalled at myself. I can't seem to feel happy for anyone else. Even the people closest to me. It could be social norm stress seeping in at this opportune moment when negativity takes over me. Usually I don't conform. But chance has it now.
Not sure if anyone really understands what I am getting at. But since it lasts only for a couple of days, no point putting too much emphasis on it. Hang on for my brighter posts then....
My life hasn't changed much from the start of the week till now. But I guess due to some physical changes, maybe hormonal more like it .. my state of mind changes. It's abit gloomy these couple of days. Even the most positive ideas racing in my head has no light at the end of the tunnel now.
It's like a line graph. Everything was shooting up, life, work, moods etc. Then out of a sudden, the graph changes route to being horizontal. It's stagnant. Everything that looked good seems to diminish into nothingness at this point in time.
What I am gonna say next might offend lotsa pple. But its ok lah .. I do that all the time.
Basically.. I am a very selfish person at the wrong moments. My brain entertains the epitome of selfishness when I am in such moods. These notions usually doesn't last more than 2 days.. but the fact that their presence were felt makes me feel appalled at myself. I can't seem to feel happy for anyone else. Even the people closest to me. It could be social norm stress seeping in at this opportune moment when negativity takes over me. Usually I don't conform. But chance has it now.
Not sure if anyone really understands what I am getting at. But since it lasts only for a couple of days, no point putting too much emphasis on it. Hang on for my brighter posts then....
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
When I Fall In Love......
I think it's more like When will I fall in love?
The drama din do much good apparently cos it led me thinking... I THOUGHT I could like someone.. someone whom I had a baby crush on for the past few years. But as fate would have it.. I still can't like someone.
I miss the feeling of liking someone.. letting emotions run wild... letting emotions over-run logic... letting emotions spoil your day... letting emotions bring that real sadness out in me... letting emotions rule all my actions.....
I miss the feeling of a smile from someone making my day.... a call from someone making my heart race... a sms from someone bringing a smile to my face... a light touch from someone making my goosebumps alive and send chills of excitement running up my spine...
I miss all that... but will all these ever come back to me........................
The drama din do much good apparently cos it led me thinking... I THOUGHT I could like someone.. someone whom I had a baby crush on for the past few years. But as fate would have it.. I still can't like someone.
I miss the feeling of liking someone.. letting emotions run wild... letting emotions over-run logic... letting emotions spoil your day... letting emotions bring that real sadness out in me... letting emotions rule all my actions.....
I miss the feeling of a smile from someone making my day.... a call from someone making my heart race... a sms from someone bringing a smile to my face... a light touch from someone making my goosebumps alive and send chills of excitement running up my spine...
I miss all that... but will all these ever come back to me........................
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Drama-ma-ma
I finished it!! Finally!! Rem I mentioned I took some vcds from JR... so I have just finished one set. It's called "惡作劇之吻" or "Prank Kiss" literally. It was a fantastic show... revives me instantly.. like what GOOD dramas do to me..
Hahaha.. again.. this show has managed me pull me into the realm of fantasy.. Girl liking guy for a whole 5 yrs. No matter how he snubbed her.. she persisted. Ya ya.. but I guess in reality... no girl can manage such a feat. Of cos he must have shown some sorta reciprocation, even in the slightest way possible.. only then I suppose the girl will have the strength to carry on.
It got me thinkin for abit. How can anyone really really like a person that much... hmm.. I have the answer actually.. Cos it happened to me before. But I guess with age fuelled with cynicism... its a level which I can't seem to possibly reach. WHY WHY WHy!!!??!!??? I always enjoyed the feeling of liking someone for a hell lot.. way more than someone liking me.. so why can't I seem to do that now.............. sighs... The show reminded me of how I was yrs back ... everything little thing just makes or breaks your day. *smiles*
Ok.... I get it. Some bimbo here in lala land.. just penning my thoughts.. penning my wishes and dreams here...
This is one of the pics for the show.. Ya.. I think the guy's cute cute! haha .. Just my type.. pretty boy.. his character in this show is what makes me wanna kill for.. so previously even when I watched him before.. I din take it to heart.. ahha ..
PS: Grab the show for drama fanatics..... its funny too.. as in HAHA funny.. hahhah .. oh ya .. thanks Ah Sa!!!
Hahaha.. again.. this show has managed me pull me into the realm of fantasy.. Girl liking guy for a whole 5 yrs. No matter how he snubbed her.. she persisted. Ya ya.. but I guess in reality... no girl can manage such a feat. Of cos he must have shown some sorta reciprocation, even in the slightest way possible.. only then I suppose the girl will have the strength to carry on.
It got me thinkin for abit. How can anyone really really like a person that much... hmm.. I have the answer actually.. Cos it happened to me before. But I guess with age fuelled with cynicism... its a level which I can't seem to possibly reach. WHY WHY WHy!!!??!!??? I always enjoyed the feeling of liking someone for a hell lot.. way more than someone liking me.. so why can't I seem to do that now.............. sighs... The show reminded me of how I was yrs back ... everything little thing just makes or breaks your day. *smiles*
Ok.... I get it. Some bimbo here in lala land.. just penning my thoughts.. penning my wishes and dreams here...
This is one of the pics for the show.. Ya.. I think the guy's cute cute! haha .. Just my type.. pretty boy.. his character in this show is what makes me wanna kill for.. so previously even when I watched him before.. I din take it to heart.. ahha ..
PS: Grab the show for drama fanatics..... its funny too.. as in HAHA funny.. hahhah .. oh ya .. thanks Ah Sa!!!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Guilt Pangs
Done. Bleah....
What I was yakking about yesterday night aka my last entry... has a result.
SIGH. I think my boss wants to "demote" her to serve another department instead..... and yes... I AM GUILTY.
What I was yakking about yesterday night aka my last entry... has a result.
SIGH. I think my boss wants to "demote" her to serve another department instead..... and yes... I AM GUILTY.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Anger & Stress Management
I have been swamped with work... literally!!
Blatantly.. I m doing the work for 2 peeps.. and getting the salary of ONE! My only other colleague who is working with me on this project apparently gets quite abit more moolahs goin into her account every month as compared to me.. who does her job as well..
I FEEL SICK.
I have to say we work DIFFERENTLY. Her speed of doing things is so crawlly that I have to take a deep breath each time my eyes catch her "working". Being the frank person I have always been, I tried hinting subtly, telling her blatantly, and all sorts.. but I guess.. certain QUALITIES are inborne.. you can't expect someone to change the way she has been doing things .. if she has been like that for the past 30 yrs of her life. YES. U GOT IT. FREAKING THIRTY YEARS...........
HOW CAN ANYONE WORK LIKE HER!!!!!!!!
But to be fair to her... she is a nice girl by heart. But certain flaws cannot be covered up by just that. As the work builds up around me.. and deadlines pushing near... I m close to exasperation. Pple who know me would be pretty shocked.. as I m never bothered about things.. but her intelligence really sparks off this dark and augmented side of me.
Thus, once again, I tried to tell her off today. But before I could open my mouth, she told me she cannot handle the stress that comes along with work. NOW NOW... first things first.... what work does she do?????? THEREFORE... WHAT STRESS DOES SHE HAVE??????
Ok.. I m being bitchy again.. hafta slap myself for this. But I brought this up with boss nonetheless. He knows she is like tat.. afterall.. he brought her into this job...... (gosh.. what foresight.. ) He did ask me if she was slowing me down in my work. Eveerything she was supposed to do now lands on my lap... because.. boss does not have that tinge of confidence in her that she can do it all alone. Cos if she did.. it would have been done already. ARGHHHH!!!!!!
I have never worked with such incompetency before. I know I m being mean again .. but surely.... I know I m not blowing things up. But cos she cries each time (twice) boss yells at her (for the same reasons why she irritates me), tears start forming cumulonimbus shapes in her eyes.... thus, we all feel the pity in us.. and stop our ranting.
See.. Anger seeping thru the veins to my head.. but Stressed to keep it contained... so as not to allow the situation of someone goin into depression.... Manage it Min... Anger and Stress.
Monday, August 14, 2006
Bdae Pics...
Me and zee crazy girls..... haha ...
oh.. me n the crazy fuzzy boys.....
The four of us.... my onli 2 "guai" frens.... :P
Me n everyone else.. this group is difficult to explain.. hahah ..
If anyone wants to know any handsomes or pretties..... drop me a comment.. hahah .. I feel like the bloody SDU.. hahahaha :P
Sunday, August 13, 2006
The End........ ?
This post title was supposed to be "The End". Without the question mark. This changed just a mere 10 secs ago when a sms came ringing into my cell.
Women. This is the problem with them. Almost always, they forgive too easily. They give too many chances. Their hearts rushes to rescue the situation 20metres ahead of the brain. Logic loses to emotions. For me, this is one of the rare occasions.
The whole affair while it lasted was slightly thrilling, very comfortable... well.. I am not sure whether to put it as "lasted" or in progress still. But odds are low now.. and probably... not before long .. it will be the real end.
It's funny... cos I tend to write my own sad endings. Cos I prophesied for it to happen. The prophesy was in the one of the previous entries. Don't get me wrong. I am not upset or down. It's within my expectations. Think my supernatural powers. I bring it to its highest level at the most apt timing.
CONCLUSION / REAFFIRMATION : I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE ................ ANYMORE.
Women. This is the problem with them. Almost always, they forgive too easily. They give too many chances. Their hearts rushes to rescue the situation 20metres ahead of the brain. Logic loses to emotions. For me, this is one of the rare occasions.
The whole affair while it lasted was slightly thrilling, very comfortable... well.. I am not sure whether to put it as "lasted" or in progress still. But odds are low now.. and probably... not before long .. it will be the real end.
It's funny... cos I tend to write my own sad endings. Cos I prophesied for it to happen. The prophesy was in the one of the previous entries. Don't get me wrong. I am not upset or down. It's within my expectations. Think my supernatural powers. I bring it to its highest level at the most apt timing.
CONCLUSION / REAFFIRMATION : I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE ................ ANYMORE.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Tired thus bullshitting nonsensically........
Although it was supposedly a "short" week due to the PH in mid-week, but ironically, this PH might have turned the rest of the working days into longer ones.
I AM TIRED. EXTREMELY TIRED.
I can barely keep my eyes open!! Thought I was up to it... so though I finished my meeting at 7pm ( it's a friday.. meaning I WAS SUPPOSED to end work at 530pm), i went for some drinks.. even before the clock struck twelve, my "stepmother" of sleep was hollering at me... I can barely keep my eyes open.........
But NO... I had to make this fantastical decision to join the rest at O Bar, just cos Paul decided to let me drive his Kangoo.. which is manual by the way. Fate tempted me, I decided driving a manual car... FINALLY... definitely beats sleeping hands down. So there I went..
No stalling of engines... everything was fine.. but when I got off the car, I realised. My left leg almost cramped up!! Clutch Clutch!! A pedal which I have not stepped on in yrs.... you really got my left leg there..
Me and Wens.. 2 aging women... sitting on the couch at O Bar... lookin and feeling really tired. After 2 over hours of "trying to enjoy ourselves", we decided.. nothing will make us happier than sleep. So we dragged Kit and Paul home. Paul was pissed high... so I get to drive again.. When I got home.. Paul dear decided that he needed to rest before he shuttles himself home. So I left him downstairs. When I got outta my shower.. he was still there.. Now he is over at Kit and Wen's .. no way he could have made it home.
All these "intriguing" and once in a blue moon events occurred cos ... I DIN DRIVE MY CAR TODAY.
Mummy was so shocked that she called me. YES.... I don't think I will do that again soon... No sense of empowerment.. cabs are not my cup of tea either..
Oh ya.. tired. Yes I am still very so so so tired. Damn it.. I can hold a conversation.. then I fall asleep.. rather.. I slurred the conversation into sleep mode. Literally. FUCK. Beat that.
Maybe cos my lashes are too heavy for my puny eyelids... damn.. or whichever reasons.. work is somehow finding its way into my dreams.. I can't rem shit.. but seems like work was lingering in my dreams.. somehow somewhere...
I NEED SLEEP... but then again.. sleep = dreaming of work. WHAT SHALL I DO..... maybe...
I NEED #$%$*^*&^*$%&*&*(&*......................................................................
Don't ask me. I have no idea wat's that.
I AM TIRED. EXTREMELY TIRED.
I can barely keep my eyes open!! Thought I was up to it... so though I finished my meeting at 7pm ( it's a friday.. meaning I WAS SUPPOSED to end work at 530pm), i went for some drinks.. even before the clock struck twelve, my "stepmother" of sleep was hollering at me... I can barely keep my eyes open.........
But NO... I had to make this fantastical decision to join the rest at O Bar, just cos Paul decided to let me drive his Kangoo.. which is manual by the way. Fate tempted me, I decided driving a manual car... FINALLY... definitely beats sleeping hands down. So there I went..
No stalling of engines... everything was fine.. but when I got off the car, I realised. My left leg almost cramped up!! Clutch Clutch!! A pedal which I have not stepped on in yrs.... you really got my left leg there..
Me and Wens.. 2 aging women... sitting on the couch at O Bar... lookin and feeling really tired. After 2 over hours of "trying to enjoy ourselves", we decided.. nothing will make us happier than sleep. So we dragged Kit and Paul home. Paul was pissed high... so I get to drive again.. When I got home.. Paul dear decided that he needed to rest before he shuttles himself home. So I left him downstairs. When I got outta my shower.. he was still there.. Now he is over at Kit and Wen's .. no way he could have made it home.
All these "intriguing" and once in a blue moon events occurred cos ... I DIN DRIVE MY CAR TODAY.
Mummy was so shocked that she called me. YES.... I don't think I will do that again soon... No sense of empowerment.. cabs are not my cup of tea either..
Oh ya.. tired. Yes I am still very so so so tired. Damn it.. I can hold a conversation.. then I fall asleep.. rather.. I slurred the conversation into sleep mode. Literally. FUCK. Beat that.
Maybe cos my lashes are too heavy for my puny eyelids... damn.. or whichever reasons.. work is somehow finding its way into my dreams.. I can't rem shit.. but seems like work was lingering in my dreams.. somehow somewhere...
I NEED SLEEP... but then again.. sleep = dreaming of work. WHAT SHALL I DO..... maybe...
I NEED #$%$*^*&^*$%&*&*(&*......................................................................
Don't ask me. I have no idea wat's that.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Is it real or fantasy?
Reality vs fantasy.
It's always hard to reconcile the two. Something can seem so real, yet I am unwilling to believe so, in hope that this beautiful bubble doesn't burst. In keeping it as a fantasy, anything can happen. And even if it bursts, it will just be back to reality.
I have always held this notion since my willing heart refuse to feel. Because, I have this supernatural power, to turn everything beautiful and magical into ashes, burnt smelly redundant useless stashes of black remnants which would prefer to hide away from the rest of the world.
Yet, another chance has been given to me. Hopefully this time round, my power loses its touch, and make everything fall nicely into place, and turn it into reality.......................
It's always hard to reconcile the two. Something can seem so real, yet I am unwilling to believe so, in hope that this beautiful bubble doesn't burst. In keeping it as a fantasy, anything can happen. And even if it bursts, it will just be back to reality.
I have always held this notion since my willing heart refuse to feel. Because, I have this supernatural power, to turn everything beautiful and magical into ashes, burnt smelly redundant useless stashes of black remnants which would prefer to hide away from the rest of the world.
Yet, another chance has been given to me. Hopefully this time round, my power loses its touch, and make everything fall nicely into place, and turn it into reality.......................
Monday, August 07, 2006
Back to Hibernation.......
I just got back from JR's place.. popped by her place to pick up some stuff.. hahaha .. VCDS!!!!!!!!!! I m gonna join her in her state of hibernation. Got 2 sets... with my swamped up work schedule.. I might not be as efficient as before with the dramas.. but I WILL TRY. HAHA.
I just so love the feeling of watching dramas.. korean, jap, taiwanese. It lets your imagination run to wherever the producer of the show wants it to. Just lie down, the WHOLE DAY and watch the story of someone else's. And maybe hoping some day... it might happen to me.. AS IF.
It's an addictive hobby I would say. As it is now, I am fatally addicted to watching television programmes. With so many channels running, I am spoilt for choice. LITERALLY.
Don't wanna say too much oredi.. tmr is a fresh new week.. and probably tiring.. BUT BUT BUT.. there is a public holiday~~~!!! RIGHT WHERE WE NEED IT. Wed... 9th Aug... Singapore's National Day. LALALALALA.... heck.. we just need the rest....
To end off this National Day bit... let me put down what MJ chose as his msn nick....
"I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!!!! COS IT MAKES ME WANNA GO HONGKONG............................"
Bleah.. so much for patriotism my civil servant fren.............
I just so love the feeling of watching dramas.. korean, jap, taiwanese. It lets your imagination run to wherever the producer of the show wants it to. Just lie down, the WHOLE DAY and watch the story of someone else's. And maybe hoping some day... it might happen to me.. AS IF.
It's an addictive hobby I would say. As it is now, I am fatally addicted to watching television programmes. With so many channels running, I am spoilt for choice. LITERALLY.
Don't wanna say too much oredi.. tmr is a fresh new week.. and probably tiring.. BUT BUT BUT.. there is a public holiday~~~!!! RIGHT WHERE WE NEED IT. Wed... 9th Aug... Singapore's National Day. LALALALALA.... heck.. we just need the rest....
To end off this National Day bit... let me put down what MJ chose as his msn nick....
"I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!!!! COS IT MAKES ME WANNA GO HONGKONG............................"
Bleah.. so much for patriotism my civil servant fren.............
Saturday, August 05, 2006
My birthday n MY FRENZ...
THANKS PEEPS!! ALL OF YA..
Wen, Apr, Vic, Kat and Medicine Teo!! for the wonderful nite at .. er.. I forgot the pub's name.. Now, tat was day before my birthday.. which fell on 3rd Aug apparently.
And EVERYONE who appeared at Mods for the dinner... and hor .. to those whom I forgot to read out the guest list to them... you know who u are.. SISTA.. haha .. paiseh lah! But it really din occur to me lor.. hehe ..
And yes ms chiok... I DO HAVE TAT MANY FRENZ!! haha ... and all very close to me!
I have never thought much of birthdays.. and till now.. I still don't think much of it. To me, its really a very very convenient reason to get everyone together. That's all I really looked forward to anyway... I don't feel for birthdays.. I guess the only birthdays I will prob feel for is the birth of my baby. HAHAHAHA.. but oh well.. the day might never come..
Just to pen down some thoughts. I have always always enjoyed the company of all my frenz.. there's a reason why you guys are my good buds.. I can laugh so hard, at something so pointless, so lame.. but the laughter cannot get more real than this. So therefore... here I am... showing my appreciation for all of ya.. for being my frenz over the years... A big hugz to you guys... muacks muacks!!
hahha... this seems more like a post to bla bla bla about my frenz than about my birthday .. ahhaha ..
Pics are coming right up.... waiting for photog of the day to send them to me.. Had to blog first before I get swamped with work once again ..
ONCE AGAIN I HAVE TO SAY.... THANKS TO ALL OF YA FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.... I LUV YOU GUYZ!!!!!
Wen, Apr, Vic, Kat and Medicine Teo!! for the wonderful nite at .. er.. I forgot the pub's name.. Now, tat was day before my birthday.. which fell on 3rd Aug apparently.
And EVERYONE who appeared at Mods for the dinner... and hor .. to those whom I forgot to read out the guest list to them... you know who u are.. SISTA.. haha .. paiseh lah! But it really din occur to me lor.. hehe ..
And yes ms chiok... I DO HAVE TAT MANY FRENZ!! haha ... and all very close to me!
I have never thought much of birthdays.. and till now.. I still don't think much of it. To me, its really a very very convenient reason to get everyone together. That's all I really looked forward to anyway... I don't feel for birthdays.. I guess the only birthdays I will prob feel for is the birth of my baby. HAHAHAHA.. but oh well.. the day might never come..
Just to pen down some thoughts. I have always always enjoyed the company of all my frenz.. there's a reason why you guys are my good buds.. I can laugh so hard, at something so pointless, so lame.. but the laughter cannot get more real than this. So therefore... here I am... showing my appreciation for all of ya.. for being my frenz over the years... A big hugz to you guys... muacks muacks!!
hahha... this seems more like a post to bla bla bla about my frenz than about my birthday .. ahhaha ..
Pics are coming right up.... waiting for photog of the day to send them to me.. Had to blog first before I get swamped with work once again ..
ONCE AGAIN I HAVE TO SAY.... THANKS TO ALL OF YA FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.... I LUV YOU GUYZ!!!!!
Monday, July 31, 2006
The Long Awaited "Reunion"
"Reunion"? With whom? Haha.... it's actually a TEN YEARS reunion back at my alma mater... St Nicholas' Girls School. A full 10 years... to say "how time flies" would be unfitting... really....
Me n April made an attempt to go back MUCH earlier than the designated start time of the event. TO TAKE PHOTOS. Never would I imagine I would be taking photos of the school I took for granted 10 yrs back. To be frank... I miss the school, the frens... the life I had then ...
Stepping into the grounds of the largest school I have been in... woke up my goose bumps. The feeling of reminisce was melancholic yet sweet. It was an overwhelming feeling which I could not describe. Flashbacks of sec sch life at every nook and corner of the sch I went to, rushed to me, tsunami style.
We were just walking along.. taking pics like a tourist.. every shot taken had its story..
Now, one of my main mission is to dig up the time capsules we buried in 1993. Me, charissa and Celine. It was planted underground by a very bored group of three.. haha ... So now, celine's in HK.. charissa not gg back.. its all up to me. But when I went to the back of the school, there was a shed there with a pond! Gone.. no more there.. the tree was prob dug up and it was just not possible to search for our little buried secret. I have no inkling of an idea what we put into those bottles really.. so it would have been really fun to find out... but the sad truth prevails...
After an hour plus of paparazzi snapping... we got tired. And we didn't even manage to make our way to walk through the last section of the school.. which is the new extension. HAHA... actually .. also cos me and april prob might get lost in there.. :P
We got back to the canteen.. took our well deserved rest.. but not for long.. Cos we saw MRS LIU!!! I was freaked out! She was our discplinary mistress.. We all respect her to the max.. out of fear I guess initially.. but now... she's cool.. really.. We did our usual gossiping about girl a, girl b, girl c etc. You get the drift. hahahah.. We saw pics on the table... then we came across pics of FEN!! hahha .. I called her immediately.... she HAD TO rush down to school to save herself.. ahhaha .. it was almost hilarious! I would say.. a fair bit of laughter came from Yiwan too!! But it was really er.. funny. HAHHAHHAHAHHAHAH
Oh.. before I forget.. I posted all the pics on my another webbie.. pls go to http://ambergoh.multiply.com
Oh ok.... when we turned our heads... we saw 校長.. Mrs Hwang-Lee Poh See. Goose bumps again. She retired from school a few yrs back. She made school life alot more interesting for us.. in many ways more than one. We shan't say too much ya girls.. hahaha .. but she can really TALK............ and as usual made her speech in both languages. HAHA
Ended the event with a small glitch. We decided to go out for a fag in my car.. at the same time to charge my hp cum camera. Then I had to ... had to bump into the curb.. My bumper was hanging by the thread. It got pulled off at the side! So din make our way back into into sch.. anyway sara and girls were leaving.. so we left too.
All in all, it was a fruitful trip. Just to know that everyone's fine. There were mummies, mummies-to-be, wives-to-be, and of cos, the singles club. The teachers' presence were a very pleasant surprise I would say..
All righty.... So long St Nicks.... See ya in another 10 yrs................
Lotsaluv,
Your grateful "output"
Me n April made an attempt to go back MUCH earlier than the designated start time of the event. TO TAKE PHOTOS. Never would I imagine I would be taking photos of the school I took for granted 10 yrs back. To be frank... I miss the school, the frens... the life I had then ...
Stepping into the grounds of the largest school I have been in... woke up my goose bumps. The feeling of reminisce was melancholic yet sweet. It was an overwhelming feeling which I could not describe. Flashbacks of sec sch life at every nook and corner of the sch I went to, rushed to me, tsunami style.
We were just walking along.. taking pics like a tourist.. every shot taken had its story..
Now, one of my main mission is to dig up the time capsules we buried in 1993. Me, charissa and Celine. It was planted underground by a very bored group of three.. haha ... So now, celine's in HK.. charissa not gg back.. its all up to me. But when I went to the back of the school, there was a shed there with a pond! Gone.. no more there.. the tree was prob dug up and it was just not possible to search for our little buried secret. I have no inkling of an idea what we put into those bottles really.. so it would have been really fun to find out... but the sad truth prevails...
After an hour plus of paparazzi snapping... we got tired. And we didn't even manage to make our way to walk through the last section of the school.. which is the new extension. HAHA... actually .. also cos me and april prob might get lost in there.. :P
We got back to the canteen.. took our well deserved rest.. but not for long.. Cos we saw MRS LIU!!! I was freaked out! She was our discplinary mistress.. We all respect her to the max.. out of fear I guess initially.. but now... she's cool.. really.. We did our usual gossiping about girl a, girl b, girl c etc. You get the drift. hahahah.. We saw pics on the table... then we came across pics of FEN!! hahha .. I called her immediately.... she HAD TO rush down to school to save herself.. ahhaha .. it was almost hilarious! I would say.. a fair bit of laughter came from Yiwan too!! But it was really er.. funny. HAHHAHHAHAHHAHAH
Oh.. before I forget.. I posted all the pics on my another webbie.. pls go to http://ambergoh.multiply.com
Oh ok.... when we turned our heads... we saw 校長.. Mrs Hwang-Lee Poh See. Goose bumps again. She retired from school a few yrs back. She made school life alot more interesting for us.. in many ways more than one. We shan't say too much ya girls.. hahaha .. but she can really TALK............ and as usual made her speech in both languages. HAHA
Ended the event with a small glitch. We decided to go out for a fag in my car.. at the same time to charge my hp cum camera. Then I had to ... had to bump into the curb.. My bumper was hanging by the thread. It got pulled off at the side! So din make our way back into into sch.. anyway sara and girls were leaving.. so we left too.
All in all, it was a fruitful trip. Just to know that everyone's fine. There were mummies, mummies-to-be, wives-to-be, and of cos, the singles club. The teachers' presence were a very pleasant surprise I would say..
All righty.... So long St Nicks.... See ya in another 10 yrs................
Lotsaluv,
Your grateful "output"
Thursday, July 27, 2006
EGO Disturbed...
Yes.. my ego's bruised today... I m fuming mad..
I dunno wassup with me .. but heard some comments today which I would hate to repeat.. but for the sake of this blog.. yes I will..
Had a meeting with the rest of the "dept" today.. with my boss ard.. so he kinda casually mentioned we can tell him anything.. and all that bull... think he was trying to "use" my example in a bid to sooth the tense atmosphere. He said... "like Amber lah .. got pple tell me she is not a good RSM... " RSM= MY JOB TITLE
My brain wanted to burst with a mix of anger, anger and anger... I can't be sure why too .. I kinda knew this already..
Well, like everyone knows.. I went back to a bank which I chose to leave earlier on.. I KNEW I wasn't too good at it .. no interest.. dun like the peeps there.. bla bla bla .. so I guess I had to face this sooner or later.. there are bound to be pple who will say this about me.. sighs..
So I was yakking about it to Rin n Pei.. n some guys ... dun really know who they are lah .. too cheesed off to talk about these pple anyway ...
I sent a few msgs out .. to my 2 bosses... (yes, including the one who said this in front of everyone).. and my immediate colleague.. I HAD TO WHINE. SO JUST LET ME BE.
My boss replied with.."Ok lah.. you will do good. You are doing a good job for me now, and to me, tat's all it matters."
Standard reply.. but I guess this kinda affirmation is what I needed... I dun really give a shit whether its true to his heart or not .
Ok...I have to admit.. I have never worked hard at any job since the day I joined this dark world of working life. So I will have to zip my mouth and swallow my pride when such comments about me not being good at my job is being made. BUT I KNOW I M GOOD!!! So now.. I will really have to prove something. I hope I m up to it... I m pretty sure I can.. usually I will just convince myself conveniently that aiya.. these pple I dunno them well too.. so who cares... and I dun bother to change myself.. nothing is changed. But now, at this ripe age of reaching 26.. this kinda of mentality's gotta go I guess. If I dun prove myself now.. when will I ever be able to?
IF I M THE ONLY PERSON WHO THINKS THAT I M CAPABLE, ITS POINTLESS.
"SELF PRAISE IS NO PRAISE."
So to everyone out there... if you know you have what it takes, go for it. No one will ever know.. if we don't FLAUNT it.
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHH
I dunno wassup with me .. but heard some comments today which I would hate to repeat.. but for the sake of this blog.. yes I will..
Had a meeting with the rest of the "dept" today.. with my boss ard.. so he kinda casually mentioned we can tell him anything.. and all that bull... think he was trying to "use" my example in a bid to sooth the tense atmosphere. He said... "like Amber lah .. got pple tell me she is not a good RSM... " RSM= MY JOB TITLE
My brain wanted to burst with a mix of anger, anger and anger... I can't be sure why too .. I kinda knew this already..
Well, like everyone knows.. I went back to a bank which I chose to leave earlier on.. I KNEW I wasn't too good at it .. no interest.. dun like the peeps there.. bla bla bla .. so I guess I had to face this sooner or later.. there are bound to be pple who will say this about me.. sighs..
So I was yakking about it to Rin n Pei.. n some guys ... dun really know who they are lah .. too cheesed off to talk about these pple anyway ...
I sent a few msgs out .. to my 2 bosses... (yes, including the one who said this in front of everyone).. and my immediate colleague.. I HAD TO WHINE. SO JUST LET ME BE.
My boss replied with.."Ok lah.. you will do good. You are doing a good job for me now, and to me, tat's all it matters."
Standard reply.. but I guess this kinda affirmation is what I needed... I dun really give a shit whether its true to his heart or not .
Ok...I have to admit.. I have never worked hard at any job since the day I joined this dark world of working life. So I will have to zip my mouth and swallow my pride when such comments about me not being good at my job is being made. BUT I KNOW I M GOOD!!! So now.. I will really have to prove something. I hope I m up to it... I m pretty sure I can.. usually I will just convince myself conveniently that aiya.. these pple I dunno them well too.. so who cares... and I dun bother to change myself.. nothing is changed. But now, at this ripe age of reaching 26.. this kinda of mentality's gotta go I guess. If I dun prove myself now.. when will I ever be able to?
IF I M THE ONLY PERSON WHO THINKS THAT I M CAPABLE, ITS POINTLESS.
"SELF PRAISE IS NO PRAISE."
So to everyone out there... if you know you have what it takes, go for it. No one will ever know.. if we don't FLAUNT it.
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHH
Monday, July 24, 2006
OUCH!!!
What a way to end the day!! As I was getting off my car, closing the door.. I SLAMMED MY THUMB IN BTW!!!!!!!! the pain was numbing...... it's been 2 hours since that painful crash of flesh, bone and metal.... and my thumb is still crying out for help.
OUCH!!!!!!!!!!! When this finally recovers, my thumb nail will definitely find its way off my thumb... no more nice nails till it grows back then....... OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!
That much for the 'accident'. Last weekend was hectic... it was Shauna's wedding... I was late... very late... I had no inkling of an idea that my car was supposed to be one of the bridal cars.. sighs... blur me .... but phew.. it didn't cause any inconvenience.... Sorry babe...
There she was... our beautiful Shauna and her husband Gabriel... A dream come true....
Everything went smoothly... though they only took such a short time to get all these prepared.. it was well done.. I doubt I could have managed that...It was a short and sweet wedding lunch..but it sure tired everyone out.. especially Shauna n Gab.. I think Shauna's mum was probably the happiest person at the wedding... not even the wedding couple's smiles could match hers... haha... well.. if it was my mum.. she would practically smile till you can't even see her ears!!!
Here are some pics... not of the couple though.. cos mine were really blur.. its of the guests..haha ..ie. our table of girls.
You could check out the rest of the pics atShauna's blog .
Hey.. its Vic and Yeye with me.. ahhaah .. Yeye flew all the way from HK for this wedding.....
Its the 4 of us again.. we tried to redo the alignment we had at the chinese restaurant in HK.. but no one's got a good memory u see.. hehehe....abit blur.. fen lah!! anyhow take.....tsktsk..
Here's the culprit... Fen in red, Kat, Me n Pauline.....
Vic, Yeye, Sara the joker.. she's very funny and very real too.. haha ..n of cos.. yiwan.. the mum... :)
HAHAH..blog about Shauna's wedding.. yet no pic of them..haha .. sorry peeps.. go check out her webbie lah!!!!
OUCH!!!!!!!!!!! When this finally recovers, my thumb nail will definitely find its way off my thumb... no more nice nails till it grows back then....... OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!
That much for the 'accident'. Last weekend was hectic... it was Shauna's wedding... I was late... very late... I had no inkling of an idea that my car was supposed to be one of the bridal cars.. sighs... blur me .... but phew.. it didn't cause any inconvenience.... Sorry babe...
There she was... our beautiful Shauna and her husband Gabriel... A dream come true....
Everything went smoothly... though they only took such a short time to get all these prepared.. it was well done.. I doubt I could have managed that...It was a short and sweet wedding lunch..but it sure tired everyone out.. especially Shauna n Gab.. I think Shauna's mum was probably the happiest person at the wedding... not even the wedding couple's smiles could match hers... haha... well.. if it was my mum.. she would practically smile till you can't even see her ears!!!
Here are some pics... not of the couple though.. cos mine were really blur.. its of the guests..haha ..ie. our table of girls.
You could check out the rest of the pics at
Hey.. its Vic and Yeye with me.. ahhaah .. Yeye flew all the way from HK for this wedding.....
Its the 4 of us again.. we tried to redo the alignment we had at the chinese restaurant in HK.. but no one's got a good memory u see.. hehehe....abit blur.. fen lah!! anyhow take.....tsktsk..
Here's the culprit... Fen in red, Kat, Me n Pauline.....
Vic, Yeye, Sara the joker.. she's very funny and very real too.. haha ..n of cos.. yiwan.. the mum... :)
HAHAH..blog about Shauna's wedding.. yet no pic of them..haha .. sorry peeps.. go check out her webbie lah!!!!
Monday, July 17, 2006
my cutie...
Not a single entry was attributed to my most precious in this world... my doggie... Mushroom.
Just read Pauline's blog recently where she was mentioning her dogs... well.. its a tough decision to decide to take one back home. Cos you know the responsibilities that come along with it are tremendous... and overwhelming in fact.. for pple like me who doesn't have a knack for being meticulous to details.
Now my shroomie is 4 yrs plus old.. his birthday is April 15th 2002 by the way, which I forgot about it 2 mths back. I felt so guilty.. Some peeps will be thinking... ya ya .. as if he will know.. but I can tell u ... my shroomie knows me better than anyone else.. for some funny miraculous reason.
He is the only one who can sense that I am TRULY upset. Even though my actions are no different from on normal days.. somehow he knows. I can sit down on my bed... holler him over.. then as if sensing my emotions.. he will move to towards me.. and lean against my lap. On many ocassions, this has happened. I am in fact amazed at the humanity I see in him. I believe all dogs will have this trait in them. Adversely, there are times when I merely wanna disturb him.. and irritate him.. he doesn't even glance my way!! What nerve!!! haha ...
My parents will have this discussion once in a while.. what if one day mushroom passes away ...
Trust me.. the most frequent dream me n my bro have is shroomie leaving us.. To me.. it is the inevitable... but I am indeed dreading that day.... I know it will come.. and prob sooner than anyone close to me... I have learnt to be appreciative of him although sometimes he really irritates the hell outta me. Nonetheless, he is a sweet dog.
In case I forget to pen down my gratefulness and my love for shroomie... here it is....
Shroomie.. thank you for being there for me whenever I need you.. thank you for not getting angry or cheesed off at my dumb antics... thank you for trying to kick me off my bed so that you can have a space of your own... thank you for snatching my food in my hand unnoticingly... thank you for keeping mum n dad, ah gong ah pao, and ah boy company when I am not around... thank you for being my most precious dog...... I will love you always......
Presenting... MUSHROOM GOH.............
Just read Pauline's blog recently where she was mentioning her dogs... well.. its a tough decision to decide to take one back home. Cos you know the responsibilities that come along with it are tremendous... and overwhelming in fact.. for pple like me who doesn't have a knack for being meticulous to details.
Now my shroomie is 4 yrs plus old.. his birthday is April 15th 2002 by the way, which I forgot about it 2 mths back. I felt so guilty.. Some peeps will be thinking... ya ya .. as if he will know.. but I can tell u ... my shroomie knows me better than anyone else.. for some funny miraculous reason.
He is the only one who can sense that I am TRULY upset. Even though my actions are no different from on normal days.. somehow he knows. I can sit down on my bed... holler him over.. then as if sensing my emotions.. he will move to towards me.. and lean against my lap. On many ocassions, this has happened. I am in fact amazed at the humanity I see in him. I believe all dogs will have this trait in them. Adversely, there are times when I merely wanna disturb him.. and irritate him.. he doesn't even glance my way!! What nerve!!! haha ...
My parents will have this discussion once in a while.. what if one day mushroom passes away ...
Trust me.. the most frequent dream me n my bro have is shroomie leaving us.. To me.. it is the inevitable... but I am indeed dreading that day.... I know it will come.. and prob sooner than anyone close to me... I have learnt to be appreciative of him although sometimes he really irritates the hell outta me. Nonetheless, he is a sweet dog.
In case I forget to pen down my gratefulness and my love for shroomie... here it is....
Shroomie.. thank you for being there for me whenever I need you.. thank you for not getting angry or cheesed off at my dumb antics... thank you for trying to kick me off my bed so that you can have a space of your own... thank you for snatching my food in my hand unnoticingly... thank you for keeping mum n dad, ah gong ah pao, and ah boy company when I am not around... thank you for being my most precious dog...... I will love you always......
Presenting... MUSHROOM GOH.............
Sunday, July 16, 2006
FATIGUE KILLS.... ALMOST..
You guys must have realised... I haven been bloggin as frequently as I used to... well.. tat's becos.... I AM WORKING NOW!! and hard at it u know!!!
It was an extremely tiring week... although my week started only on tuesday.. and ended "quickly" on friday.... it was hell.
Working from 9 to 730 does not sound familiar to me at all!! Definitely not in the recent year at least. I can have up to 5 meetings in a day.. Now you would think meetings are repetitive most of the times.. YOU ARE WRONG!! Everything was so different at each meeting. Due to the fact that I can't reveal much about what I am doing.. it's P & C lah... so details wise... you guyz will have to wait for prob another 6 mths... but all I can say is... I hope the line "you reap what you sow" is present in my work life... All the best to you min!! haha
So so.... after all that.. I met Wendy Vic and gang for some drinks at my usual hangout... No S. I was so tired... I almost didn't make it there... cos my bed definitely looked more welcoming and peaceful as compared to jostling with the crowd (on a fri nite), and screaming over the noise just to have a normal conversation. But well.. it was all worthwhile. It was actually relaxing.. and I was laughin hard.... at Mingjie of cos.. haha.. Wendy's SPOUSE... everyone was just funny.... haha .. all the way till I dropped the both of them.. our dearest Medicine Teo was still doing his usual stunts of entertainment. I love my frenz.. !! They are always up for anything... er.. after drinks of cos... THANKS GUYZ!!!!!!!!!
Here are some pics for you peeps.. the usual.. you can't really see where we are.. cos we figured our faces are the most impt.. thus, background doesn't change any shit. hahahahha
Wens Vic n Me.. this was I guess after some drinks.. them lah.. not me of cos...!
Vic and Apr.. obviously got nothing better to do.. so take picture lor!
Vic April n April's son.. Weihong... haha.. brought a girl for his "mummy" to vet through..
Me n Paul (Layeng)...... beginning of the nite I think...... hmmm... so its a super proper pic... no one has gone mad yet!!
Vic with the super act cute n dunno how to pose me.. as you can see... or would have guessed.. this was nearing 3am... all tired not thinking straight... in a snapping clicking mood...
All these has no Mingjie our entertainer.. I will try to rem to take some of his antics down for you peepz to admire .. HAHA ....
Ok.... haven been posting for quite some time.. abit unfamiliar... this whole entry doesn't even sound like it makes sense to me.. aiya.. probably wait till I am more in the mood with the energy to blog then I will get it done.
OH YA.... revelation for you guys... I BROUGHT WORK HOME TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!! Its an amazing feat....!!!!!!!!! I have only Sunday left to finish it up... and I have no idea at wat unearthly hour will i wake up tmr.... ARGH!!!!!...
It was an extremely tiring week... although my week started only on tuesday.. and ended "quickly" on friday.... it was hell.
Working from 9 to 730 does not sound familiar to me at all!! Definitely not in the recent year at least. I can have up to 5 meetings in a day.. Now you would think meetings are repetitive most of the times.. YOU ARE WRONG!! Everything was so different at each meeting. Due to the fact that I can't reveal much about what I am doing.. it's P & C lah... so details wise... you guyz will have to wait for prob another 6 mths... but all I can say is... I hope the line "you reap what you sow" is present in my work life... All the best to you min!! haha
So so.... after all that.. I met Wendy Vic and gang for some drinks at my usual hangout... No S. I was so tired... I almost didn't make it there... cos my bed definitely looked more welcoming and peaceful as compared to jostling with the crowd (on a fri nite), and screaming over the noise just to have a normal conversation. But well.. it was all worthwhile. It was actually relaxing.. and I was laughin hard.... at Mingjie of cos.. haha.. Wendy's SPOUSE... everyone was just funny.... haha .. all the way till I dropped the both of them.. our dearest Medicine Teo was still doing his usual stunts of entertainment. I love my frenz.. !! They are always up for anything... er.. after drinks of cos... THANKS GUYZ!!!!!!!!!
Here are some pics for you peeps.. the usual.. you can't really see where we are.. cos we figured our faces are the most impt.. thus, background doesn't change any shit. hahahahha
Wens Vic n Me.. this was I guess after some drinks.. them lah.. not me of cos...!
Vic and Apr.. obviously got nothing better to do.. so take picture lor!
Vic April n April's son.. Weihong... haha.. brought a girl for his "mummy" to vet through..
Me n Paul (Layeng)...... beginning of the nite I think...... hmmm... so its a super proper pic... no one has gone mad yet!!
Vic with the super act cute n dunno how to pose me.. as you can see... or would have guessed.. this was nearing 3am... all tired not thinking straight... in a snapping clicking mood...
All these has no Mingjie our entertainer.. I will try to rem to take some of his antics down for you peepz to admire .. HAHA ....
Ok.... haven been posting for quite some time.. abit unfamiliar... this whole entry doesn't even sound like it makes sense to me.. aiya.. probably wait till I am more in the mood with the energy to blog then I will get it done.
OH YA.... revelation for you guys... I BROUGHT WORK HOME TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!! Its an amazing feat....!!!!!!!!! I have only Sunday left to finish it up... and I have no idea at wat unearthly hour will i wake up tmr.... ARGH!!!!!...
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