The Long Awaited "Reunion"

"Reunion"? With whom? Haha.... it's actually a TEN YEARS reunion back at my alma mater... St Nicholas' Girls School. A full 10 years... to say "how time flies" would be unfitting... really....


Me n April made an attempt to go back MUCH earlier than the designated start time of the event. TO TAKE PHOTOS. Never would I imagine I would be taking photos of the school I took for granted 10 yrs back. To be frank... I miss the school, the frens... the life I had then ...


Stepping into the grounds of the largest school I have been in... woke up my goose bumps. The feeling of reminisce was melancholic yet sweet. It was an overwhelming feeling which I could not describe. Flashbacks of sec sch life at every nook and corner of the sch I went to, rushed to me, tsunami style.

We were just walking along.. taking pics like a tourist.. every shot taken had its story..

Now, one of my main mission is to dig up the time capsules we buried in 1993. Me, charissa and Celine. It was planted underground by a very bored group of three.. haha ... So now, celine's in HK.. charissa not gg back.. its all up to me. But when I went to the back of the school, there was a shed there with a pond! Gone.. no more there.. the tree was prob dug up and it was just not possible to search for our little buried secret. I have no inkling of an idea what we put into those bottles really.. so it would have been really fun to find out... but the sad truth prevails...

After an hour plus of paparazzi snapping... we got tired. And we didn't even manage to make our way to walk through the last section of the school.. which is the new extension. HAHA... actually .. also cos me and april prob might get lost in there.. :P

We got back to the canteen.. took our well deserved rest.. but not for long.. Cos we saw MRS LIU!!! I was freaked out! She was our discplinary mistress.. We all respect her to the max.. out of fear I guess initially.. but now... she's cool.. really.. We did our usual gossiping about girl a, girl b, girl c etc. You get the drift. hahahah.. We saw pics on the table... then we came across pics of FEN!! hahha .. I called her immediately.... she HAD TO rush down to school to save herself.. ahhaha .. it was almost hilarious! I would say.. a fair bit of laughter came from Yiwan too!! But it was really er.. funny. HAHHAHHAHAHHAHAH

Oh.. before I forget.. I posted all the pics on my another webbie.. pls go to http://ambergoh.multiply.com


Oh ok.... when we turned our heads... we saw 校長.. Mrs Hwang-Lee Poh See. Goose bumps again. She retired from school a few yrs back. She made school life alot more interesting for us.. in many ways more than one. We shan't say too much ya girls.. hahaha .. but she can really TALK............ and as usual made her speech in both languages. HAHA


Ended the event with a small glitch. We decided to go out for a fag in my car.. at the same time to charge my hp cum camera. Then I had to ... had to bump into the curb.. My bumper was hanging by the thread. It got pulled off at the side! So din make our way back into into sch.. anyway sara and girls were leaving.. so we left too.


All in all, it was a fruitful trip. Just to know that everyone's fine. There were mummies, mummies-to-be, wives-to-be, and of cos, the singles club. The teachers' presence were a very pleasant surprise I would say..

All righty.... So long St Nicks.... See ya in another 10 yrs................


Lotsaluv,
Your grateful "output"

EGO Disturbed...

Yes.. my ego's bruised today... I m fuming mad..

I dunno wassup with me .. but heard some comments today which I would hate to repeat.. but for the sake of this blog.. yes I will..

Had a meeting with the rest of the "dept" today.. with my boss ard.. so he kinda casually mentioned we can tell him anything.. and all that bull... think he was trying to "use" my example in a bid to sooth the tense atmosphere. He said... "like Amber lah .. got pple tell me she is not a good RSM... " RSM= MY JOB TITLE

My brain wanted to burst with a mix of anger, anger and anger... I can't be sure why too .. I kinda knew this already..

Well, like everyone knows.. I went back to a bank which I chose to leave earlier on.. I KNEW I wasn't too good at it .. no interest.. dun like the peeps there.. bla bla bla .. so I guess I had to face this sooner or later.. there are bound to be pple who will say this about me.. sighs..

So I was yakking about it to Rin n Pei.. n some guys ... dun really know who they are lah .. too cheesed off to talk about these pple anyway ...


I sent a few msgs out .. to my 2 bosses... (yes, including the one who said this in front of everyone).. and my immediate colleague.. I HAD TO WHINE. SO JUST LET ME BE.
My boss replied with.."Ok lah.. you will do good. You are doing a good job for me now, and to me, tat's all it matters."
Standard reply.. but I guess this kinda affirmation is what I needed... I dun really give a shit whether its true to his heart or not .


Ok...I have to admit.. I have never worked hard at any job since the day I joined this dark world of working life. So I will have to zip my mouth and swallow my pride when such comments about me not being good at my job is being made. BUT I KNOW I M GOOD!!! So now.. I will really have to prove something. I hope I m up to it... I m pretty sure I can.. usually I will just convince myself conveniently that aiya.. these pple I dunno them well too.. so who cares... and I dun bother to change myself.. nothing is changed. But now, at this ripe age of reaching 26.. this kinda of mentality's gotta go I guess. If I dun prove myself now.. when will I ever be able to?


IF I M THE ONLY PERSON WHO THINKS THAT I M CAPABLE, ITS POINTLESS.


"SELF PRAISE IS NO PRAISE."


So to everyone out there... if you know you have what it takes, go for it. No one will ever know.. if we don't FLAUNT it.

HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHH

OUCH!!!

What a way to end the day!! As I was getting off my car, closing the door.. I SLAMMED MY THUMB IN BTW!!!!!!!! the pain was numbing...... it's been 2 hours since that painful crash of flesh, bone and metal.... and my thumb is still crying out for help.
OUCH!!!!!!!!!!! When this finally recovers, my thumb nail will definitely find its way off my thumb... no more nice nails till it grows back then....... OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!


That much for the 'accident'. Last weekend was hectic... it was Shauna's wedding... I was late... very late... I had no inkling of an idea that my car was supposed to be one of the bridal cars.. sighs... blur me .... but phew.. it didn't cause any inconvenience.... Sorry babe...


There she was... our beautiful Shauna and her husband Gabriel... A dream come true....


Everything went smoothly... though they only took such a short time to get all these prepared.. it was well done.. I doubt I could have managed that...It was a short and sweet wedding lunch..but it sure tired everyone out.. especially Shauna n Gab.. I think Shauna's mum was probably the happiest person at the wedding... not even the wedding couple's smiles could match hers... haha... well.. if it was my mum.. she would practically smile till you can't even see her ears!!!


Here are some pics... not of the couple though.. cos mine were really blur.. its of the guests..haha ..ie. our table of girls.
You could check out the rest of the pics at

Shauna's blog

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Hey.. its Vic and Yeye with me.. ahhaah .. Yeye flew all the way from HK for this wedding.....



Its the 4 of us again.. we tried to redo the alignment we had at the chinese restaurant in HK.. but no one's got a good memory u see.. hehehe....abit blur.. fen lah!! anyhow take.....tsktsk..



Here's the culprit... Fen in red, Kat, Me n Pauline.....



Vic, Yeye, Sara the joker.. she's very funny and very real too.. haha ..n of cos.. yiwan.. the mum... :)



HAHAH..blog about Shauna's wedding.. yet no pic of them..haha .. sorry peeps.. go check out her webbie lah!!!!

my cutie...

Not a single entry was attributed to my most precious in this world... my doggie... Mushroom.

Just read Pauline's blog recently where she was mentioning her dogs... well.. its a tough decision to decide to take one back home. Cos you know the responsibilities that come along with it are tremendous... and overwhelming in fact.. for pple like me who doesn't have a knack for being meticulous to details.


Now my shroomie is 4 yrs plus old.. his birthday is April 15th 2002 by the way, which I forgot about it 2 mths back. I felt so guilty.. Some peeps will be thinking... ya ya .. as if he will know.. but I can tell u ... my shroomie knows me better than anyone else.. for some funny miraculous reason.

He is the only one who can sense that I am TRULY upset. Even though my actions are no different from on normal days.. somehow he knows. I can sit down on my bed... holler him over.. then as if sensing my emotions.. he will move to towards me.. and lean against my lap. On many ocassions, this has happened. I am in fact amazed at the humanity I see in him. I believe all dogs will have this trait in them. Adversely, there are times when I merely wanna disturb him.. and irritate him.. he doesn't even glance my way!! What nerve!!! haha ...


My parents will have this discussion once in a while.. what if one day mushroom passes away ...

Trust me.. the most frequent dream me n my bro have is shroomie leaving us.. To me.. it is the inevitable... but I am indeed dreading that day.... I know it will come.. and prob sooner than anyone close to me... I have learnt to be appreciative of him although sometimes he really irritates the hell outta me. Nonetheless, he is a sweet dog.


In case I forget to pen down my gratefulness and my love for shroomie... here it is....

Shroomie.. thank you for being there for me whenever I need you.. thank you for not getting angry or cheesed off at my dumb antics... thank you for trying to kick me off my bed so that you can have a space of your own... thank you for snatching my food in my hand unnoticingly... thank you for keeping mum n dad, ah gong ah pao, and ah boy company when I am not around... thank you for being my most precious dog...... I will love you always......


Presenting... MUSHROOM GOH.............

FATIGUE KILLS.... ALMOST..

You guys must have realised... I haven been bloggin as frequently as I used to... well.. tat's becos.... I AM WORKING NOW!! and hard at it u know!!!

It was an extremely tiring week... although my week started only on tuesday.. and ended "quickly" on friday.... it was hell.

Working from 9 to 730 does not sound familiar to me at all!! Definitely not in the recent year at least. I can have up to 5 meetings in a day.. Now you would think meetings are repetitive most of the times.. YOU ARE WRONG!! Everything was so different at each meeting. Due to the fact that I can't reveal much about what I am doing.. it's P & C lah... so details wise... you guyz will have to wait for prob another 6 mths... but all I can say is... I hope the line "you reap what you sow" is present in my work life... All the best to you min!! haha


So so.... after all that.. I met Wendy Vic and gang for some drinks at my usual hangout... No S. I was so tired... I almost didn't make it there... cos my bed definitely looked more welcoming and peaceful as compared to jostling with the crowd (on a fri nite), and screaming over the noise just to have a normal conversation. But well.. it was all worthwhile. It was actually relaxing.. and I was laughin hard.... at Mingjie of cos.. haha.. Wendy's SPOUSE... everyone was just funny.... haha .. all the way till I dropped the both of them.. our dearest Medicine Teo was still doing his usual stunts of entertainment. I love my frenz.. !! They are always up for anything... er.. after drinks of cos... THANKS GUYZ!!!!!!!!!


Here are some pics for you peeps.. the usual.. you can't really see where we are.. cos we figured our faces are the most impt.. thus, background doesn't change any shit. hahahahha




Wens Vic n Me.. this was I guess after some drinks.. them lah.. not me of cos...!




Vic and Apr.. obviously got nothing better to do.. so take picture lor!




Vic April n April's son.. Weihong... haha.. brought a girl for his "mummy" to vet through..




Me n Paul (Layeng)...... beginning of the nite I think...... hmmm... so its a super proper pic... no one has gone mad yet!!




Vic with the super act cute n dunno how to pose me.. as you can see... or would have guessed.. this was nearing 3am... all tired not thinking straight... in a snapping clicking mood...



All these has no Mingjie our entertainer.. I will try to rem to take some of his antics down for you peepz to admire .. HAHA ....


Ok.... haven been posting for quite some time.. abit unfamiliar... this whole entry doesn't even sound like it makes sense to me.. aiya.. probably wait till I am more in the mood with the energy to blog then I will get it done.


OH YA.... revelation for you guys... I BROUGHT WORK HOME TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!! Its an amazing feat....!!!!!!!!! I have only Sunday left to finish it up... and I have no idea at wat unearthly hour will i wake up tmr.... ARGH!!!!!...

CHAMPIONS!!! VIVA D'ITALIA!!!!

YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!! ITALIA WON!!! EVERYONE WON!!!!!!!!


It was definitely an excruciating match...... kinda the total opposite of the third fourth placing match.. meaning.. today's first half was neck-to-neck and majorly exciting, but it kinda fell flat in the second half. UNTIL........... Zizou had to get himself red-carded.

My heart goes out to him. This is his final international... all eyes were on him to win the CUP and end his days in glory. But things will never go the way we planned them to be. Probably some really nasty words were brandished at him, for him to lose his control, for him to headbutt Materazzi. For a captain to lose his cool in this manner, was in my opinion, uncalled for. He is one of the finest players I have seen in my life. And like I mentioned before, he is a magician. Regardless of what he did today, RESPECT. ZIZOU, YOU DA MAN!


Well, it all went down to penalties once again. Not the fairest way to settle the scoreline I feel, but there it went. With the pressure on France, Italy breezed through the shootout and made their way to lift the World Cup, fourth time in history. Well done!

Kudos to my fave man, FABIO CANNAVARO!!! Fantastic match... you were everywhere when the team needed you. This is reliability I say. He was the coolest and most suave man during the shootout. Absolutely emotionless................. till the deciding penalty went into the back of the net. COOL!!! Real glad that Cannavaro lifted the cup for Italy during his international captaincy. YAY YAY YAY!!!!!


Alright...... this is prob the last blog I will do on WORLD CUP GERMANY 2006. It was an inspirational round of games for the past one month. Absolutely entertaining....Feeling abit of unwillingness to let this whole affair end.. but guess its the end of the road.. so..... I WILL MAKE IT THERE PERSONALLY FOR WORLD CUP SOUTH AFRICA 2010.... I promise...


A pic of the champions for WORLD CUP GERMANY 2006.... Presenting.... TEAM ITALIA...............!!!!!!

She makes me happy..

"She makes me happy.."


Someone sent me a sms with this msg. We kinda bumped into him at our usual pub. Won't know whether to call it a pleasant surprise or a rude shock. I came to realise.. it was the former.


He was someone I used to "go out with".. abit of bad blood here and there.. unpleasantries were said.. but all's well.. he was with a girl. Initially, I thought the girl was one of his usual flings.. but after a while... it didn't seem that way. So I sent him a msg... "Hey.. your gf ah?"

His reply.. "maybe.."

And immediately after, another msg came in. "She makes me happy.."


Don't get me wrong peeps... no jealousy or watever occurring here. On hindsight, this is a thought provoking line. Made me think through many things in the shower again.

I am generally pretty void of emotions... Not that I am intentionally doing it.. but I seem to be incapable of feeling. My frens would know. This one liner is out of my league. IT IS VOID OF LOGIC AND RATIONALE.


This, coming out from a guy whom I would say had his fair share of girls... is epiphanic. Really. I feel for him. I feel really happy for him.


Just before all these thinking... me and Vic had a discussion. I told her I am real tired. I need someone to take charge and take care of me. I don't wish to think anymore. Somebody just do it!! By force or whichever way.. I don't care.. just take me under your care. Well, she said.. I just have to make a choice ... just to make that decision to decide .. to commit.. to one of them.

But now, its apparent that I don't want anyone of them. None of them is right.. at least for now. Cos if they are, there will be no chances for choices. I used to know this in me.. but somehow down the years.. I lost it.

I always believed that when you ask a person "eh.. why u like him ah?" if that person can give u answers like.. "oh.. he's cute, he's nice to me, he's got this and that bla bla bla.. " these are bullshit.


I BELIEVE I MAY HAVE FOUND A CONVINCING ANSWER TONIGHT. Yes... "He makes me happy.."

Just like how I told "L".. I am waiting for one day when I can say the same line as him... before I can.... please pray for me that I don't fall into the trap of convenience.

EUPHORIA EUPHORIA EUPHORIA!!!

YYYYYEEEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ITALY WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Its 5.33am in e morning... but I HAVE TO BLOG THIS!!


YOOOOOO WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Its been such a long time since I felt this adrenaline rush!!! E last time was prob during champion's league many yrs ago when Man Utd beat Bayern Munich 2-1 in the finals.... yeah!!!!!!!!

Oops... realised both occasions, the germans were beaten. No offence though.

My already in dreamland shroomie very poor thing..... when Italy scored.. I practically picked him up from his deep sleep and swung him round n round.. he must be thinking... wtf!! hahahahha ..... such euphoria... it's really been a long time...YAY YAY YAY!!!!




ALL THE WAY ROMANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Typical Whinings........

I hate this!! I accidentally closed off the window.. and I din save anything I typed in just now! FUCk!


ANYWAYS................. did something which I haven done in quite a long time.. I had drinks with my fren at my house KOPITIAM. Nono.. not the food court thingy KOPITIAM.. but the real.... kopi tiam.

HAHA.. of cos... him beer.. me coke.. hehe .. eh.. I sick hor .. gastric... bad...


Had our usual conversations about love, relationship, work, sex and what have you... This bud of mine ah .. needs some alcohol in him before he gets to sleep. I said.. that's some expensive sleeping pills you got yourself there.. heng mine cheaper.. watch tv can liao ... haha

Ok.. so we were talking... then I just hate it when the whole world is telling me... min.. this guy is no good lah .. is this nice to ALL the girls... super good at sweet talking... etc. And egoistical me who is sure that I can pick out sincerity in a person almost straightaway, begs to differ. Hate it when its ME vs REST OF THE WORLD. Mind you.. its after using my super duper analytical mind to sieve thru all his sweet talkin and all, I come to the conclusion he is sincere. HAHA. This is not the first time it has happened. The last time when ALL my frens went agst me... It was a horrifying experience. But I think I made the right choice and judgement back then.


No no... just in case my comments box starts filling up with dearies asking me who this guy is.... no worries. I just have good vibes.. nothin much to add. To talk about "like".. I think we have a long way to go ... me is commitment phobic lah.. heh


So this bud of mine.. he just kena some kinda "player dunno e rules shit". Some girl he hitched up with.. turned the tables on him.. and spilled the beans to everyone that he was all over her. Uh huh... its the other way round. Its always "it takes TWO hands to clap"... and no matter how pissed high you are... YOU WILL KNOW YOU ARE CLAPPING. So you BIORTCH!! WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!!


So I told him.."Oi! Next time find your prey properly lah! Dun find those play oredi then act innocent kind! these 'bo ji' girls..!" Then he said .. okok.. no bankers... teachers? TEACHERS??!!?? Teachers now very happening one leh ..... there goes.. his sad face... then i said.. NURSES?? He smiles and nods.............................


He has his piece too .... "You girls always say guys are B@#$%^& and damn F$#%ed up... but put the good guys in front of you all.. you all dun want.. "


True true. I admit. What to do.. dun think I m alone on this.


Well.. thus, we decided to get our singles' flats next to each other at the age of 35. Anyone wants to join the club? We can buy up the whole corridor... at least we won't be LONELY ALONE.


Oh well.. this entry is abit confusing I understand... But love, relationship and everything around it has always been confusing hasn't it? Pardon me.. this is just one of the usual rantings I do once in a while.....


Righty.... match starting... germany vs italy.... GO ROMANS!!!!

Tired..

It's gonna be a short entry, and a sad one for me. England is out. And so is Brazil.

This is prob the most depressing match day I have gone through. Other than the fact that I lost moolahs.. I am very saddened by the results. But ... welcome to the world of soccer ........

Kudos to England for hangin on with 10 men ... but penalty shoot outs really ain't your cup of tea ya... er.. let's try not to bring the game THAT far the next time round....

Brazil Brazil..... did well too.. but France really did prove to be the better team. But I AM MAJORLY UPSET... as I know and am very sure that if Brazil played with the god-given tenacity and creativity, France would not have caught a whiff of a goal. Nonetheless, this was the best game in the tournament so far..... great football... Zidane is a magician I swear ..... rightly deserved scoreline for the performance put up today ...


It's time for me to rest, and await the semi-finals.... And I am typing at such a slow speed and with such a melancholic mood that I am gonna stop now. Tired ............

Sad Departure, Bye Argies...

Tonight holds the screening of one of the biggest matches of WC 2006. GERMANY VS ARGENTINA. Instincts told me to place my cash on certain bets, and YESH... it was fruitful.

Watched the match in the weirdest surroundings I would have ever imagined myself to be in. WINE BAR. I have never been a fan of clubbing since about eons ago.. but since all of my colleagues were up to it. So there we went.

DC n WH were there too. I knew. So did our normal jibberish while watching the match, and me shuttling btw them n my colleagues. But it was pretty fun nonetheless. Oh.. n I met Marcelly!! Haven seen her in such a long deal... she is very hyper ... as always...


Before this, I had a company function/party at Butter Factory. Nothing to rave about really. The place, but not the peeps ard me. It was bad enough schmoozing.. but with booze and music.. in the dark.. everyone turns into anyone. My dearest colls were all busy with their catches... it was amazing... what they can do with what they have. (haha... !!)

The boos of clubbing once again gets to me. I gave up clubbing cos I din wanna see girls hung up dry n drunk... rather.. using alcohol as a convenient excuse. But it was a routine at clubs. So back to the ol' days...


Had quite a revelation about my own feelings tonight actually.. haven really got it figured out yet. Once I do.. hehe.. Will keep you guys posted.. :P


And oh ya... to make sure I dun digress from the title of my blog entry.. here goes.

My idea of a perfect WC final match would be btw Brazil n Argentina. But nopie nope nope.. it ain't happening. Good play tonite Args... but you guyz lost to geography. What's worse... though Italy won by a big margin.. they are gonna meet the home boys in the next round. There goes another good team.... so BRAZIL.. work hard... !!!!!!

Hate to see teams lose through penalty shoot outs... damn................



Here... a tribute to the Argentina team..... see ya again in 2010.............