AMAZING TALES...

My current place of work is well.. the heart of our city... SHENTON WAY. YUCKS.

It is one of the most dreaded place for me on this earth. Lunch time is a horror. Have you heard of the "tissue gang"? Gosh ... I feel sick. A pack of half used tissue... and they wanna ban access to the rest of the world for those seats. You must really check out those looks when you "attempt" to figure out whether those seats are taken. If they see you hovering around their seats... they will show you.. in a manner no less than blatant ... that those seats are "chopped". Kill me.

Now, that's number one. Next in line... I only experienced this incredulous imagination turned reality this time round when I went back. TAKING THE MORNING TRAIN.

I used to take the bus... that was when I could still manage to wake up earlier... so never had this problem. Now.. I take the train . These peepz are amazing... everything that happens on tv on train rides.. happens to me every morning!! becos of my high heels... and my aging body.. I can't seem to balance very well.. but there are no available poles ard for me to grab hold to. Either they are too far away .. or even if they are right next to me.. there is a decoration hanging right next to it : THE POLE HOGGER.

Then... pples' faces are in my face... my hair is in theirs... their bags are nudging my back... all sorts of funny weirdo stuff just happens. It's a challenge getting to work taking the train... without me frowning.. really .. Oh and today.. I was late.. so I had to get on the most exciting timing of trains: 830am to 9am. PEAK. I waited for 3 trains before I managed to get on one. But that was no issue. HOW I got on the train was. I didn't move much.. I was practically shoved by the moving masses ard me.. carrying me with them onto the train. POOF.. and there I was... packed like sardines... Didn't have to balance.. as it was impossible to fall. NO ONE COULD POSSIBLY ATTEMPT SUCH AN AMAZING FEAT OF FALLING WHEN WE ARE ALL SO WELL CUSHIONED LEFT RIGHT FRONT AND BACK.

No matter how tired I am when I first boarded the train... by the time I leave the trains and reach the real world... I am wide awake. The amazing tales of "train-ing" triggers off excitement, challenge, thrills in my desolate mornings..........






PS: yes I may be spoilt.... but it's a revelation to me.. I am still savouring it ....... until my marginal utility reaches the decreasing point of the curve... or rather.. my patience................

ONE

Recently I have been thinking of other peoples' lives. Ever since that day when Gracie and I had a conversation about doing charity, my mind keeps wandering back to it.

I thought about it and came to this conclusion: My life is so short. I am already a quarter of a century old. It's time I give back what I have taken from this Earth.

When I save enough to leave some moolahs with mummy, and to settle everyone, I will drop everything here, and go to one of the third world countries to do some giving and sharing. FOR A YEAR. At the apt moment, I came across this banner at chunk's blog for www.one.org. So there you have it... the calling...

Told Rin about it today.... so she asked why not start doing charity here? Good question. But my reply to that was, no matter how "poverty stricken" some of my fellow citizens may be... they most probably still have a roof above their heads. Pardon me for my blunt remark, but I would still have to contest for it as this is the truth. We are talking about food being a problem, malnutrition is so common that they might not even know its a sickness.

I am suddenly reminded of speaking to some peeps ard me... my frens basically... the conversations we had sometimes makes me feel like "What is wrong with you!!" But I can't really blame them too much. Being pampered is not fault of theirs. I have to admit that I am pampered in certain ways too. However, weirdly enough.. I never had problems with environments which are not up to our hygiene standards.

All that aside, maybe doing this will give me the sense of enrichment in life lessons which I have never really been taught for the past two tens of years. If you guys are interested, do make a visit to www.one.org. There are other organisations other than ONE. Just click on the banner at my blog's sidebar.. it will get you there instantly. Cheerios!!

Full House

"FULL HOUSE"


I have watched this show.. I think probably about 5 times.. but without fail.. every single time.. it tickles me like no other dramas can. It is my one and only FAVE drama of ALL TIMES.

What sparked this off once again.. is cos April dear was doing her round of "Full Housing" yesterday nite at Wen's place. I was supposed to be having a hand in my mahjong game... but seems like my eyes were more fixated on the screen.. Instead of the usual "pongs" and what have you... tunes from the show were streaming outta my mouth... it was such a joyous thing to be doing.. hahahaha.. but sorry ah .. to the other 2 peeps who had to endure the girls' sideline commentaries on the show..


To me, "Full House" has been able to capture my attention for the full episodes of its run. Its fast, and really funny. Even though I know exactly what's coming up.. but I still find myself laughing at it. This is so weird.. ahahaha .. Of cos, it has the usual ingredients of a sweet drama, and Rain and Song Hye Gyo being the leads are like the most beautiful thing. They are real compatible. See! Even me, who is an ardent fan of Rain has to admit this.


To those of you out there who think korean dramas as draggy teary prolonged episodes of torture, CATCH THIS. You won't regret this. Hmm.. but just catch this then.. the rest.. er.. well.. most of them still belong to the former category.


Now, presenting one of the sweetest scenes taken from the show, shot in Phuket, enjoy.....

In a state of Nothingness

Life is often as unpredictable as it can get. Maybe it's not life.. but more of a person's emotional state from time to time.

My life hasn't changed much from the start of the week till now. But I guess due to some physical changes, maybe hormonal more like it .. my state of mind changes. It's abit gloomy these couple of days. Even the most positive ideas racing in my head has no light at the end of the tunnel now.

It's like a line graph. Everything was shooting up, life, work, moods etc. Then out of a sudden, the graph changes route to being horizontal. It's stagnant. Everything that looked good seems to diminish into nothingness at this point in time.


What I am gonna say next might offend lotsa pple. But its ok lah .. I do that all the time.

Basically.. I am a very selfish person at the wrong moments. My brain entertains the epitome of selfishness when I am in such moods. These notions usually doesn't last more than 2 days.. but the fact that their presence were felt makes me feel appalled at myself. I can't seem to feel happy for anyone else. Even the people closest to me. It could be social norm stress seeping in at this opportune moment when negativity takes over me. Usually I don't conform. But chance has it now.


Not sure if anyone really understands what I am getting at. But since it lasts only for a couple of days, no point putting too much emphasis on it. Hang on for my brighter posts then....

When I Fall In Love......

I think it's more like When will I fall in love?


The drama din do much good apparently cos it led me thinking... I THOUGHT I could like someone.. someone whom I had a baby crush on for the past few years. But as fate would have it.. I still can't like someone.

I miss the feeling of liking someone.. letting emotions run wild... letting emotions over-run logic... letting emotions spoil your day... letting emotions bring that real sadness out in me... letting emotions rule all my actions.....

I miss the feeling of a smile from someone making my day.... a call from someone making my heart race... a sms from someone bringing a smile to my face... a light touch from someone making my goosebumps alive and send chills of excitement running up my spine...


I miss all that... but will all these ever come back to me........................

Drama-ma-ma

I finished it!! Finally!! Rem I mentioned I took some vcds from JR... so I have just finished one set. It's called "惡作劇之吻" or "Prank Kiss" literally. It was a fantastic show... revives me instantly.. like what GOOD dramas do to me..

Hahaha.. again.. this show has managed me pull me into the realm of fantasy.. Girl liking guy for a whole 5 yrs. No matter how he snubbed her.. she persisted. Ya ya.. but I guess in reality... no girl can manage such a feat. Of cos he must have shown some sorta reciprocation, even in the slightest way possible.. only then I suppose the girl will have the strength to carry on.


It got me thinkin for abit. How can anyone really really like a person that much... hmm.. I have the answer actually.. Cos it happened to me before. But I guess with age fuelled with cynicism... its a level which I can't seem to possibly reach. WHY WHY WHy!!!??!!??? I always enjoyed the feeling of liking someone for a hell lot.. way more than someone liking me.. so why can't I seem to do that now.............. sighs... The show reminded me of how I was yrs back ... everything little thing just makes or breaks your day. *smiles*


Ok.... I get it. Some bimbo here in lala land.. just penning my thoughts.. penning my wishes and dreams here...





This is one of the pics for the show.. Ya.. I think the guy's cute cute! haha .. Just my type.. pretty boy.. his character in this show is what makes me wanna kill for.. so previously even when I watched him before.. I din take it to heart.. ahha ..



PS: Grab the show for drama fanatics..... its funny too.. as in HAHA funny.. hahhah .. oh ya .. thanks Ah Sa!!!

Guilt Pangs

Done. Bleah....

What I was yakking about yesterday night aka my last entry... has a result.

SIGH. I think my boss wants to "demote" her to serve another department instead..... and yes... I AM GUILTY.

Anger & Stress Management

I have been swamped with work... literally!!

Blatantly.. I m doing the work for 2 peeps.. and getting the salary of ONE! My only other colleague who is working with me on this project apparently gets quite abit more moolahs goin into her account every month as compared to me.. who does her job as well..


I FEEL SICK.



I have to say we work DIFFERENTLY. Her speed of doing things is so crawlly that I have to take a deep breath each time my eyes catch her "working". Being the frank person I have always been, I tried hinting subtly, telling her blatantly, and all sorts.. but I guess.. certain QUALITIES are inborne.. you can't expect someone to change the way she has been doing things .. if she has been like that for the past 30 yrs of her life. YES. U GOT IT. FREAKING THIRTY YEARS...........

HOW CAN ANYONE WORK LIKE HER!!!!!!!!


But to be fair to her... she is a nice girl by heart. But certain flaws cannot be covered up by just that. As the work builds up around me.. and deadlines pushing near... I m close to exasperation. Pple who know me would be pretty shocked.. as I m never bothered about things.. but her intelligence really sparks off this dark and augmented side of me.

Thus, once again, I tried to tell her off today. But before I could open my mouth, she told me she cannot handle the stress that comes along with work. NOW NOW... first things first.... what work does she do?????? THEREFORE... WHAT STRESS DOES SHE HAVE??????

Ok.. I m being bitchy again.. hafta slap myself for this. But I brought this up with boss nonetheless. He knows she is like tat.. afterall.. he brought her into this job...... (gosh.. what foresight.. ) He did ask me if she was slowing me down in my work. Eveerything she was supposed to do now lands on my lap... because.. boss does not have that tinge of confidence in her that she can do it all alone. Cos if she did.. it would have been done already. ARGHHHH!!!!!!


I have never worked with such incompetency before. I know I m being mean again .. but surely.... I know I m not blowing things up. But cos she cries each time (twice) boss yells at her (for the same reasons why she irritates me), tears start forming cumulonimbus shapes in her eyes.... thus, we all feel the pity in us.. and stop our ranting.


See.. Anger seeping thru the veins to my head.. but Stressed to keep it contained... so as not to allow the situation of someone goin into depression.... Manage it Min... Anger and Stress.

Bdae Pics...

Me and zee crazy girls..... haha ...


oh.. me n the crazy fuzzy boys.....


The four of us.... my onli 2 "guai" frens.... :P


Me n everyone else.. this group is difficult to explain.. hahah ..


If anyone wants to know any handsomes or pretties..... drop me a comment.. hahah .. I feel like the bloody SDU.. hahahaha :P

The End........ ?

This post title was supposed to be "The End". Without the question mark. This changed just a mere 10 secs ago when a sms came ringing into my cell.

Women. This is the problem with them. Almost always, they forgive too easily. They give too many chances. Their hearts rushes to rescue the situation 20metres ahead of the brain. Logic loses to emotions. For me, this is one of the rare occasions.

The whole affair while it lasted was slightly thrilling, very comfortable... well.. I am not sure whether to put it as "lasted" or in progress still. But odds are low now.. and probably... not before long .. it will be the real end.

It's funny... cos I tend to write my own sad endings. Cos I prophesied for it to happen. The prophesy was in the one of the previous entries. Don't get me wrong. I am not upset or down. It's within my expectations. Think my supernatural powers. I bring it to its highest level at the most apt timing.


CONCLUSION / REAFFIRMATION : I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE ................ ANYMORE.

Tired thus bullshitting nonsensically........

Although it was supposedly a "short" week due to the PH in mid-week, but ironically, this PH might have turned the rest of the working days into longer ones.


I AM TIRED. EXTREMELY TIRED.


I can barely keep my eyes open!! Thought I was up to it... so though I finished my meeting at 7pm ( it's a friday.. meaning I WAS SUPPOSED to end work at 530pm), i went for some drinks.. even before the clock struck twelve, my "stepmother" of sleep was hollering at me... I can barely keep my eyes open.........

But NO... I had to make this fantastical decision to join the rest at O Bar, just cos Paul decided to let me drive his Kangoo.. which is manual by the way. Fate tempted me, I decided driving a manual car... FINALLY... definitely beats sleeping hands down. So there I went..

No stalling of engines... everything was fine.. but when I got off the car, I realised. My left leg almost cramped up!! Clutch Clutch!! A pedal which I have not stepped on in yrs.... you really got my left leg there..


Me and Wens.. 2 aging women... sitting on the couch at O Bar... lookin and feeling really tired. After 2 over hours of "trying to enjoy ourselves", we decided.. nothing will make us happier than sleep. So we dragged Kit and Paul home. Paul was pissed high... so I get to drive again.. When I got home.. Paul dear decided that he needed to rest before he shuttles himself home. So I left him downstairs. When I got outta my shower.. he was still there.. Now he is over at Kit and Wen's .. no way he could have made it home.

All these "intriguing" and once in a blue moon events occurred cos ... I DIN DRIVE MY CAR TODAY.

Mummy was so shocked that she called me. YES.... I don't think I will do that again soon... No sense of empowerment.. cabs are not my cup of tea either..


Oh ya.. tired. Yes I am still very so so so tired. Damn it.. I can hold a conversation.. then I fall asleep.. rather.. I slurred the conversation into sleep mode. Literally. FUCK. Beat that.

Maybe cos my lashes are too heavy for my puny eyelids... damn.. or whichever reasons.. work is somehow finding its way into my dreams.. I can't rem shit.. but seems like work was lingering in my dreams.. somehow somewhere...


I NEED SLEEP... but then again.. sleep = dreaming of work. WHAT SHALL I DO..... maybe...


I NEED #$%$*^*&^*$%&*&*(&*......................................................................


Don't ask me. I have no idea wat's that.

Is it real or fantasy?

Reality vs fantasy.

It's always hard to reconcile the two. Something can seem so real, yet I am unwilling to believe so, in hope that this beautiful bubble doesn't burst. In keeping it as a fantasy, anything can happen. And even if it bursts, it will just be back to reality.


I have always held this notion since my willing heart refuse to feel. Because, I have this supernatural power, to turn everything beautiful and magical into ashes, burnt smelly redundant useless stashes of black remnants which would prefer to hide away from the rest of the world.

Yet, another chance has been given to me. Hopefully this time round, my power loses its touch, and make everything fall nicely into place, and turn it into reality.......................

Back to Hibernation.......

I just got back from JR's place.. popped by her place to pick up some stuff.. hahaha .. VCDS!!!!!!!!!! I m gonna join her in her state of hibernation. Got 2 sets... with my swamped up work schedule.. I might not be as efficient as before with the dramas.. but I WILL TRY. HAHA.

I just so love the feeling of watching dramas.. korean, jap, taiwanese. It lets your imagination run to wherever the producer of the show wants it to. Just lie down, the WHOLE DAY and watch the story of someone else's. And maybe hoping some day... it might happen to me.. AS IF.

It's an addictive hobby I would say. As it is now, I am fatally addicted to watching television programmes. With so many channels running, I am spoilt for choice. LITERALLY.

Don't wanna say too much oredi.. tmr is a fresh new week.. and probably tiring.. BUT BUT BUT.. there is a public holiday~~~!!! RIGHT WHERE WE NEED IT. Wed... 9th Aug... Singapore's National Day. LALALALALA.... heck.. we just need the rest....

To end off this National Day bit... let me put down what MJ chose as his msn nick....


"I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!!!! COS IT MAKES ME WANNA GO HONGKONG............................"

Bleah.. so much for patriotism my civil servant fren.............

My birthday n MY FRENZ...

THANKS PEEPS!! ALL OF YA..

Wen, Apr, Vic, Kat and Medicine Teo!! for the wonderful nite at .. er.. I forgot the pub's name.. Now, tat was day before my birthday.. which fell on 3rd Aug apparently.

And EVERYONE who appeared at Mods for the dinner... and hor .. to those whom I forgot to read out the guest list to them... you know who u are.. SISTA.. haha .. paiseh lah! But it really din occur to me lor.. hehe ..
And yes ms chiok... I DO HAVE TAT MANY FRENZ!! haha ... and all very close to me!

I have never thought much of birthdays.. and till now.. I still don't think much of it. To me, its really a very very convenient reason to get everyone together. That's all I really looked forward to anyway... I don't feel for birthdays.. I guess the only birthdays I will prob feel for is the birth of my baby. HAHAHAHA.. but oh well.. the day might never come..

Just to pen down some thoughts. I have always always enjoyed the company of all my frenz.. there's a reason why you guys are my good buds.. I can laugh so hard, at something so pointless, so lame.. but the laughter cannot get more real than this. So therefore... here I am... showing my appreciation for all of ya.. for being my frenz over the years... A big hugz to you guys... muacks muacks!!

hahha... this seems more like a post to bla bla bla about my frenz than about my birthday .. ahhaha ..

Pics are coming right up.... waiting for photog of the day to send them to me.. Had to blog first before I get swamped with work once again ..

ONCE AGAIN I HAVE TO SAY.... THANKS TO ALL OF YA FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.... I LUV YOU GUYZ!!!!!