Yesterday was a tumultous day since 2 yrs back. Tears flowed, words exchanged, hidden emotions displayed. But at the end of the day, what did we get from all these? A step back into the past, which will thereafter be the future.
Sending my heartfelt appreciation for all of you out there who really cared (regardless in whichever manner). I am very grateful to the fact that this time round, it's not me against the rest of you. I know supporting my decision would be abit too harsh for you guys as frens... but by accepting it, is more than enough for me to pull this through.
No worries about me dearies ( I know you guys are not exactly worried)... I wll get through this, I am still the super Leo. I will bear that in mind. Acting without putting it through the brain is not the usual way I do things, but I guess, this time round, the heart wins.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
More than just that...
I have unwittingly dragged myself back into the mess I tried so hard to get out of.
A soft spot was all I was calling it ... all these while.. But I guess... once again, the heart feels differently from the thinking brain. I have never been at a loss for any kinda situations in my life... No one.. no matter how strong the character is, no matter how overbearing, I could handle, situations were always under control. These were harsh situations and characters we are talking about here. But this time, I am trapped. For the second time.
No character, situations are ambiguous, and yet, I am trapped. Not the usual thinking self, just letting my heart lead, step by step, usually into the wall. But for him, even the wall becomes soft. Harsh reality gets thrown underneath the carpet. And, he did not do a single thing to cushion all these. It just all happens because it's him.
Rational me becomes dreamer me. Living on bread me, starts living and breathing with the heart once again.
Wake up. He is not the one. Reality will hit me in the face once I step too deep once again. Hope that by saying that to myself and everyone out there... Sooner or later, I will wake up.
A soft spot was all I was calling it ... all these while.. But I guess... once again, the heart feels differently from the thinking brain. I have never been at a loss for any kinda situations in my life... No one.. no matter how strong the character is, no matter how overbearing, I could handle, situations were always under control. These were harsh situations and characters we are talking about here. But this time, I am trapped. For the second time.
No character, situations are ambiguous, and yet, I am trapped. Not the usual thinking self, just letting my heart lead, step by step, usually into the wall. But for him, even the wall becomes soft. Harsh reality gets thrown underneath the carpet. And, he did not do a single thing to cushion all these. It just all happens because it's him.
Rational me becomes dreamer me. Living on bread me, starts living and breathing with the heart once again.
Wake up. He is not the one. Reality will hit me in the face once I step too deep once again. Hope that by saying that to myself and everyone out there... Sooner or later, I will wake up.
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