Consciously Intoxicated

Literally!! Frens who have been hanging out with me long enough should know that I have stopped clubbing since I can't even remember when... but yesterday night, I decided to go. And I didn't drive. Now, that seems like an all out attack to allow myself to wallow in indulgence of decadence... and you are right.

I was pretty much intoxicated, plus the fact that I took some pills in the morning, plus the fatigue from a full day of work, everything just adds up. To be frank, although alcohol content has reached a pretty high limit in my body, I was fully aware of all my actions, and still observing my surroundings. Although speech was abit slurred, and eyes couldn't pry open that easily, I think I did an absolutely fantastic job of remembering every single detail of what happened the night before.

Now... what I really don't like is to be taken care of.. when I don't need it. I am very blatant and frank about things, if I need help, I will open my freaking mouth and ask for it. But when I don't, I don't need help..... get it???!!!!??? All these just make me seem like I am a blardy drunkard bitch who doesn't know how to control herself and making things difficult for everyone. Why can't anyone understand that I am in full control??!!?? Peeps who are truly concerned, peeps who seem to appear concerned, but somehow I can sense a tinge of ulterior motive hiding behind... peeps are who just freaking can't be bothered, peeps who take advantage of the situation and try to appear concerned.....FUCK! *breathe*



Ok... on the hindsight, let me be more benevolent and remember that the frens I was hanging out with yesterday night do not know me well or for long. So I just hope that in time to come, if they are to remain as frens, there will be a day when they will come round to their senses and see the real me...


Got home in the morning, but woke up at 11 plus. Barely 5 hours of sleep, and my head is hurting, but I am fully awake. I shock myself sometimes.....

Well, it's yet another day gone by... I will have to go back to my doldrums at shenton way tomorrow, fighting a lonely battle. But I will survive.. hahahah ..

Swirling in the doldrums

It's been very tiring, I have to bow to the reality that I am zapped of my energy. As my good fren Vic would nod in agreement, I am no longer the person of strength I used to be. My positivity, energy and forward looking thoughts in life have discreetly shifted its direction to the other side, where there is no light. And all these done right under my nose, only now do I realise.

Ever since I started this job back in July last year, I am being slowly sucked into this downward spiral which only goes one way. But over the past month or so, I think I have reached my limit. Work takes up 3/4 of my life, what's left behind I try to make the best of it. Come what may, it doesn't elevate any stress, instead, it adds on so much more. Much more that my feeble self can handle right now.

Men lie, but why? Are they lying? Or do they just not know what is the truth within themselves? I hate to think men as weaklings, but sometimes, I am left with no choice. Many a times, situations can be easily avoided. Even with my constant checks to ensure the ugly side of all of us don't surface, but they still creep up. Nothing is hard to do, nothing is hard to decide, it's just a yes or no.

But as usual, I will get through... I will pull myself up and walk towards the light................

Shopaholics!!!l

My muscles are aching!!! From all the walking, the carrying of the "i-wonder-why-they-are-so heavy" shopping bags, and the fact that sitting in the cab at 1050am in the morning, on route to the malls is considered late!!!!! Even my emotional health is affected!! Hahahahha....

I was so glad and imagined I did myself a huge favour by packing just half a bag to make my way there. I came back with TWO packed to the brim bags. On the last day, there was nowhere for us to unload our luggage while we continue our last spurt of shopping. Thus, we carried the bags, and shopped. This totally explains the aches and all now..........

Glad we made the trip, regardless whether it was actually a well rested trip. Point of it was to get away from work. Not that I totally managed to get away, cos in many ways more than one.. I had that alien contact with work through our globalised network of communications. Hilton Central was great.. it was simply amazing.. the room was very well decorated... feel very much at ease, this rarely happens for the rest of the hotels... so thanks there Rin!! I have to apologise for us being such bimbos and nuisance with absolutely no nuance of an idea what stealth meant at 3am in the morning... sorry babe.... but we know that you wanna go with us AGAIN!! COS WE ARE SUCH GREAT AND ENTERTAINING COMPANY!!!!!!!!! :P

All that aside... today's already Sunday, the day before the very much dreaded Monday. But since I have taken my mandatory rest stop, I shall MARCH ON............................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long Awaited Break

Finally I get to go .... to KL. DUH. hahhaha .. A break of any kind is better than none at all. Me and CJ are just jumping on the bandwagon... tagging our asses along with Rin on her biz trip. It's gonna be time away from all the hustle and bustle of work, life and everything else that's bothering us... a true break.

So Miss Shopaholic has already scoured through the net looking for all possible nooks and corners where she can get anything.. and I mean .. anything. So yes.. more shopping to be done. No time for damage control, cos today, I just blew moolahs off on 2 Kate Spades. And I haven even step foot into KL yet!! But bleah.. wat's done cannot be undone. And I LOVE MY BUYS.....

Ooh.. and I need to save some bills to get some Tauran irritant his birthday present. God save me. Sigh.... life is really not that easy .... But just thinking of the holiday, although it's just to our MOST BELOVED neighbouring country... it's being looked forward to. I have lost all interest in putting my heart and soul to work, I just wanna stop working and start my break right now. RIGHT NOW. Alright.. since that can't happen, so here is the FREE accomodation we will be enjoying in "Malaysia.... Truly Asia...."



HERE WE GO GO GO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!