Weird person to ask for help - Realization

Someone has been wanting to talk to me, to ask me questions. I had my reasons for not talking to him. But I did anyway.

He asked me what could he have done to salvage our relationship at that point in time. Obviously, he is having relationship problems. The girl and me, are apparently very alike. Now first things first, why do human beings have the same habits? Knowing certain things don't work, means they don't work. I am like the wrongest person to say this, cos I am exactly like that.

Whatever it is, the point of me blogging this is the realization that I better watch myself. Cos due to watever reasons, I might lose the person next to me anytime, and then, I will be the one putting my msn nick as - "Treasure what you have".

Is a holiday that difficult?

Ever since I came back from HongKong, I have been trying to plan for a resort holiday. But it's apparently not happening.

There are so many problems, and difficulties, and constraints, and circumstantial issues... and yada yada bla bla..... I HATE THIS!!!!!


I JUST WANNA GO FOR MY HOLIDAY!!!

Pamperings

I wanna go for a holiday, to stay in a luxurious water villa to pamper myself and my senses.

I wanna get a luxurious and extravagant watch which will probably take up more than a month's pay.

I wanna get diamond earrings, which will glitter from afar.

I wanna buy a new car, one that suits my own taste and zips around town with style.

I wanna get a property which is designed and furnished to the exact way I want it to be.

But right now, I want you to come back and be by my side.

State of the World

I have been a great fan of cable channels 10, 11 and 12, Animal Planet, Nat Geo and Discovery. Between one of the latter two, I have always been unable to catch the beginning sections of this documentary called "Rwanda". Always only managing to catch snippets of the end, this documentary has been just another "oh ya, if I get the chance to watch the full docu, whenever" program. However, one fateful day, I managed to catch the full one hour episode, and good grief, it was an awakening.

Some basic background to the Rwanda genocide, that's the bare minimal I can manage anyway. In 1994, when I was 12. Damn, I was more than able to read and write, and understand matters of the world, what was I doing then?? Anyway, in 1994, in Rwanda, a small republic in Africa, yes, it's a country, a massive genocide went on. According to the documentary, more than 800,000 were killed in just a mere 100 days. Unbelieveable. It's like ethnic cleansing, like KKK. One fine day, the Hutu clan decided that that they couldn't stand being in the same breathing space as the Tutsi clan. So alright then! What best way to go then to just kill all of them!

Imagine, 2 families, being neighbours for ten over years, children growing up together, turn around and start chopping up your soccer playing buddy and dumping their remains in the river. Well, this was the exact same scenario that the documentary portrayed. And they interviewed the sole survivor and the murderer TOGETHER. Yes, you are absolutely right. Now, no one is being charged for murder, and everyone is trying to live in peace and harmony. This is what we should really call, sleeping and living with the enemy.

No one was spared, children, women. No one. Basically if you are a Tutsi, you have no other way out. And if you are a Hutu, if you don't kill, you will be killed. Apparently about 50,000 of those killed were Hutus who refused to join the crowd. All over the radio waves, were perpetuators of the crimes, hypnotising the Hutus to execute. UN took eons of years to step in. And there was a batch of US Army on duty, and when they took the initiative to step in to stop the killings when it was first initiated, they was reprimanded and called back to the states, for acting without orders. Well done.

The atrocities are inhumane. Just try to search for the program and sit through it.

Now, we have another current situation. It's happening in Darfur. Not as massive as killings and all, but estimated death toll about 400,000. Mostly from starvation. But also genocide. You can check out this website for more details. http://www.savedarfur.org


I don't wanna gross you out, but this pic is to show you peeps how bad it was.

My apologies for the heavy entry, but I had to voice it out, if not I will suffocate. If you guys are free, you could check out on Pol Pot, one of the most inhumane torturers to ever lived. Coincidentally, I watched a program called "Pol Pot's Poison". Check it out too if you can. That's all folks.....

You can't have it all

God is fair. Or at least he tries to balance the happiness with the sadness. Or he thinks that I have way too much, and I shouldn't be too happy? I really have no idea what he is thinking.

In my case, one door opens, and another closes... why can't I have 2 open doors?

Tibetan War

I just read Wendy's blog on an international issue which I apparently have lost touch with. For those interested, please visit www.wenspaperboat.blogspot.com.

There is an additional link in her entry which gives us an insight to a world which is all foreign and intriguing to us. Afterall, Tibet has been one of my "have to visit" places since I was 14, along with Egypt and Greece. So here it is, go have a look!

TRUCE

I went through a tumultous Sunday as usual. Fights and arguments, pushing and shoving. But there was a significant difference today. We reached a truce.

We agreed on certain issues which have been hounding us for the past couple of months. So we have decided to compromise and see how it goes, with both of us trying. Pinkies hooked, I hope this works. *all my fingers crossed*

Even before trying out if this works, I am already beginning to feel the good ol feelings I felt for my baby already......... Good night.....

Aftermath of the Fright

Well, she is fine now. But not her emotional state. She definitely needs alot of resting and to get herself of my sucky work environment.

You see, she was supposed to fly with me to HK this coming thursday. However, due to all these unfortunate things happening, she won't be going. I don't blame her, I really think she needs her well deserved rest. After all, if stress from work can cause your body to malfunction, this work needs to be reconsidered.

Problem: I don't mind flying to HK myself, if yeye's gonna be there. BUT!!!! She will be flying back Singapore the same day I fly into HK!!!! And it's kinda dangerous going alone, and I wonder if SOMEONE will actually allow me to do that.


Sighs...... it's tough trying to arrange for things to happen this way. I just have to take one step at a time and see how things go. But I only have 3 days to figure it out.

Had a Fright

This is the second day of my mc, resting at home. Never believed in mummy's myths that getting caught in the rain will make me sick. At the grand old age of 27+, I am glad to tell mummy, YOU ARE RIGHT.

Awhile after dinner, a sms came ringing through my phone. One of my colleagues had fits and fainted in office. I was pretty much at a loss of what to do, but i got up, went to shower, and was planning to make my way down to SGH. Didn't make it there though, as probably it was inconvenient, and might tamper the flow of things if too many of us went down.

But nonetheless, I was shocked. I actually went to ask my dad if anyone could die of having fits. Yes, I admit I am not very well versed in the medical arena, but I was pretty scared. Fits is not something that has happened to anyone close to me, so this is the first time.

But I am glad that everything's fine and she's resting in the ward. Once again, this is probably heaven's way of reminding us, how fragile life can be......

Horrible weekends

Staying at home doing nothing. Wat kinda weekend is that??!!?? Well, it's been like this for TWO FULL WEEKENDS. Why don't someone just take the gun and shoot me in the head?

I am always being overpromised and undelivered. DAMN.

Take it on the bright side, I am positive, simple and definitely naive.

Need to trim

Someone just commented that I have a TUMMY! And that I used to look BETTER, not that I look bad now!

KILL ME!!!!! gosh... I AM FAT.


Therefore, here I am, starting on my "horrific" pills again... once more... hope that this time I can pull through it like I used to, and look BETTER.

This is the first time I am do

This is the first time I am doing MOBILE BLOGGING!!! Hope this works!!

- This blog was updated through my M1 mobile phone.

ALL OF YOU!

Self explanatory.

To everyone of you out there who thinks unreasonably, not sparing a thought for my feelings. And YOU YOU YOU! Not even listening to any explanations, any of MY explanations!

FUCK OFF!

Oblivious me!!

I just read Ah Sa's blog, used to be for her own, but now, for her other breathing half too.

Maybe cos I was too engrossed with my own problems and too sucked in my own world that I didn't open my eyes to see.... how blissfully in love my twin is! Gosh! I have to admit, and this she will definitely agree to, that this is probably the most blatant she has owned up to her feelings about any man. I am close to feeling guilty that I didn't see it. Sorry Ah Sa!!!!

Now that I see her swirling around in her pretty world, a sense of happiness overwhelms me. Finally. She deserves this much she is receiving now. :)

To all my darlings who wanna see how happy my twin is, please visit www.kopicco.blogspot.com.

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