Exposed

Sometimes in life, there are facts and options which we choose to shove under the carpet. If no one mentions, we will just carry on with life pretending that they are not there.

However, life attacks you when you are most unprepared. Who will imagine that these comfortably hidden options were to be exposed by your most loved one, and in the most friendly environment of all times? Most importantly, when you least expect it.

When these options are exposed, you have to stop lying to yourself, as everything lies bare out in the open. Next course of action? To take that hated option, or to shove it under the carpet again?

I feel very exposed and pushed to a corner now.

My Precious

This is my baby.... Introducing... Mushroom Goh. Haha...

Down... with the most common

Ok, I am sick. For real.

For no rhyme or reason, caught this flu bug from nowhere. But my buddy was on leave, no choice, had to lug my heavy ass to work for 2 whole days. With so much frustrations at work, it's amazing I got out of it all alive.

Today, she goes back to work. And I can finally take my rest. BUT NO! I have to get myself prepped up to go for my best friend's wedding which is coming up this Friday 9th Jan 2008.

Now off for my long needed rest as per my doc's instructions.

Who? Me?

It's the new year once again, making that unnoticeable step into 2009, taking stealth steps.

2008 didn't end with a bang, 2009 didn't start with a bang. Everything has become routine, a boring routine for everyone, with nothing to look forward to. Maybe the economic state of the world right now plays a part with "nothing to look forward to". hmm... my company announces our bonus and pays out in the new year, thus, this time round, it will be 2 fat zeros for 2009.

On a more personal note, I realised my life is changing. Slowly, but steadily.. I am no longer the fiery, outspoken, confrontational person I used to be. Well, you might think that it's a good sign. But no, I think it's a downward spiral towards losing myself, the person I recognised when I look into the mirror. Not sure what is in store for me, to make it worse, I am not interested in what lies ahead. HAHA... what a joke.

Everything I am doing now, and closing one eye to, is just a mere effort to make my life easier. What happened to those days when I fought for what I wanted in life? I think age and society has changed quite abit. Even the crowd we hang out with changes.

My new year resolution for 2009, to find back myself, but not to lose the good habits I have picked up along the way of losing myself. Contradictory? Ya... that's who I am, a walking contradiction.