A Blink of Hope.. Just in time ..

With nothing to do on a Sunday night.. I decided to go home and take my well deserved rest. Unknowingly, my very tired brain decided to drift into sleep. Peaceful and quiet.. I managed to get through my rest with zero disturbance.. but it didn't last long. I woke up, with the most horrendous thoughts in my mind, and this is not the first time. NO, it's not a dream. I woke up with the harsh reality in my face, and engulfing my brain no less, my peaceful night came to an end.

You see, although my job entails advising on financial planning, but I am not too apt in this field myself. My finances are in a mess. I can tell you, "mess" is a pretty mild word to describe the current situation. And FINALLY deciding to leave this field of work, and yet no opportunities to a new one, this other situation is suffocating me. Going to work everyday, with no drive, no passion, no motivation, is akin to putting the other foot into the grave, joining the one which is already in there. Nothing is going well at this point in time, at this tender age of 26... this is a bleak position I am in now.

So I woke up, switched on the tv set, my only companion for the larger part of my life. Switching channels, my only hobby in the middle of the night. I saw LIGHT. There it was, staring back at me from the screen. I know you guys are gonna kill me when I reveal what I saw but this is me! The idealistic yet rational me. This drama was on the screen. 惡魔在身邊 Devil Beside You.

I loved this show! Well okay.. this may sound really teeny boppie.. but my life becomes slightly brighter after going through the show. Not too long ago, a conversation transpired between me, my lady boss and my colleague (guy).

Male: I always thought that girls who watch drama serials are very sad people.

Me: Why leh ? Wat's the matter with you?

Boss: Ya lah .. I watch vcds very often you know..

Male: I just think that girls no matter what they claim, but through the drama, they are hoping to fulfill their dream of the cinderella story or whichever happy ending they want. But they know its not possible in real life. So its very sad that they have to resort to that.

Me, Boss: *totally disagrees, and gives our two cents worth of comments*


Now, you see. I agree that watching dramas will tend to make people slightly more dreamy than usual. But we DO NOT pray everyday that this will happen to us in days to come. We are just glad that such romanticism still exists in the world. We truly believe in it, and we have encountered true cases in our daily lives. It's a subtle reminder that life is only as bleak as our own minds can see it. It's all about mentality. Personally, I regain my positivity from dramas, it's a tool. And I enjoy doing it. Regardless of what anyone else says, through yesterday night's surprise find on tv, my day has started on a different note. I see that blink of hope, and just in time...