In a state of Nothingness

Life is often as unpredictable as it can get. Maybe it's not life.. but more of a person's emotional state from time to time.

My life hasn't changed much from the start of the week till now. But I guess due to some physical changes, maybe hormonal more like it .. my state of mind changes. It's abit gloomy these couple of days. Even the most positive ideas racing in my head has no light at the end of the tunnel now.

It's like a line graph. Everything was shooting up, life, work, moods etc. Then out of a sudden, the graph changes route to being horizontal. It's stagnant. Everything that looked good seems to diminish into nothingness at this point in time.


What I am gonna say next might offend lotsa pple. But its ok lah .. I do that all the time.

Basically.. I am a very selfish person at the wrong moments. My brain entertains the epitome of selfishness when I am in such moods. These notions usually doesn't last more than 2 days.. but the fact that their presence were felt makes me feel appalled at myself. I can't seem to feel happy for anyone else. Even the people closest to me. It could be social norm stress seeping in at this opportune moment when negativity takes over me. Usually I don't conform. But chance has it now.


Not sure if anyone really understands what I am getting at. But since it lasts only for a couple of days, no point putting too much emphasis on it. Hang on for my brighter posts then....